angelic world

2006-07-03T04:59:00.000+14:00

FINALLY met up with my darling wei..=)words juz cant seem to explain the feeling i had when i was with you..the ease i felt..the fact that i can say anything and do anything and know that you will not judge me coz u love me for who i am..=)thanx wei..i love u!

im thankful for today..thankful at how the way things turned out..thankful to see that YOU are making an effort..thankful that i have YOU..thankful that my parents are now more open..thankful that YOU are willing to take the step to clear things up..thankful for having YOU by my side throughout the whole thing..=)

but most impt..thank you for loving me..for loving me despite my flaws..for loving me despite all my mood swings..for loving me despite always being irritated at you when it's my fault..for loving me despite my imperfections..=)

2006-06-29T04:10:00.000+14:00

are you there God???????????

2006-06-28T04:20:00.000+14:00

i feel so helpless and useless
using you in this state
yet i can only hear u complain, hear your inner most thoughts and feelings
i cant be there physically with you
to hold ur hand and tell u it's gona be alright
i know it's gona be alright coz we have our God who loves us
and i know He's in control no matter wat..
so dear,pls hang in there and i pray the pain in ur knee will go away..
it really hurts to see u in pain
yet i cant do anything to take it away or to share it with you

2006-06-27T04:43:00.000+14:00

today's the 1st day of the school..2 weeks of hols juz came and went by like that..how sad...first week of the hols was quite a blur..did loads of beads shopping for my creativity project...

2nd week of hols was the most memorable..=)spent every single day with my dearest..spending every single moment with him..shopping..eating..cooking..watching tv...hanging around..=) i felt so happy...=)it was juz pure bliss..=)i love him soooo sooo much..=)thanx for making me the happiest girl my dear..=)hugss....

school today was sucky..i was kinda pms-ing and some people juz din make it better..the way you booast soooo subtly and all juz pisses me off..come on..it's sooo obvious la..and it's seriously getting on my nerves..there are other stuff i so wana bitch..but i noe i shouldnt..i'll say it to you in the face if i want to..no way am i becoming like the hypocrites like you-know-who...sigh...

anyway, the main purpose of this post is to tell and give a shout out to my darling wei bestie to tell her i miss her so much!!her msg really perked me and made my day soooo much better..

"i miss quarrelling over seats in science lab.i miss comforting you when you lock yourself up in toilets..i miss complaining abt stjohn..last time see you 6 days a week..now less then once a month..cant wait for sat:)"

i miss u too wei..really cant wait to see u this sat!!cant wait for some girlie talk and some catch up,bitching and gossiping session with you..i miss u loads wei..=)hugss....love you babe!!

2006-06-19T04:23:00.000+14:00

kor's engagement party was a blast! it was really tiring..but i felt so happy and so warm inside..seeing the couple exchange rings in the presence of all the relatives and love ones was such a heartwarming sight..i almost teared during the ceremony..not because i was sad but coz i was really happy to see my kor so happy..he was full of smiles throughout the entire day..we were all tired from all the preperation..decorations..food stuff and all but he was so radiant and so happy..i can tell he truly loves eileen and im so happy for them..=)

photos will be up soon..

=)

2006-06-16T03:58:00.000+14:00

knowing you're so stressed up with work,school and ur hall stuff makes me really guilty..i can only hear u rant and complain but i duno wat i can do to lighten ur load..i cant be there physically to hug u and listen to u..babe,im sorry that i cant be there for u..but u noe i'm only a call away and if u need me,juz call me and i'll rush down to find u..coz u mean alot to me wei..our friendship has gone way back till when i still had my two ponytails and we were both geeky and all..haha..

so babe,if anything,pls call me and complain to me k?i'll always be here to listen ya?=)hugs babe..i dun wana see u all stressed up and all k?and dun worry about neglecting me coz i totally understand ya?our friendship has gone way past the stage of meeting up everytime juz to update each other coz we both noe that we'll always be there and we'll always be the best we'll ever be ya?i love u wei!=)

hugs...besties always yep?remember the gold coin?yea?love u dear..=)

2006-06-07T07:15:00.000+14:00

` * jose k ; princess ™ says: (1:10:35 AM)
and babe, pls stop thinking abt sam the monster!~

` * jose k ; princess ™ says: (1:10:47 AM)
and that jeremy reads ur blog right?

` * jose k ; princess ™ says: (1:10:55 AM)
poor jeremy!

haha..jose is damn funny la..im NOT thinking about sam la pls..dun be crazy k..im so happy with my dearie now..=)

and i hope citybank indo rejects you so u can come to singapore to spend time with the bimbos!!!haha..i hope july quickly comes!!!cant wait for my darling president to get back!!=)faster get your ass back la..and pls dun appear like a snowman and give us a shock again k?

i love you my babe!!=)hugsss...

2006-06-06T07:34:00.001+14:00

i cant seem to get the thought outa my head..i hate the nagging feeling i have inside..i cant seem to concentrate now..and it doenst help that i have tonnes of work not done..an accumulation since week 1 of school!!and it's already wat..the 7th week of school!!im so screwed la..ok..i noe i have 2 weeks of hols..but it's filled with projects and projects and more project dealines to meet..arrgghh...

crap..why do i keep having this sense of dejavu..it just so reminds me of the situation of me and sam..it sucks...why am i hearing the same stuff that i heard before..it just all seems so..i duno la..i dun doubt his feelings..its juz me..i cant get over myself...i cant seem to get over my own side of the barrier..but im really trying very hard..coz i so wan this to work out and im really so into him..i cant let go coz i've already put my all into it..my whole heart,soul and everthing..im gona fight it all the way..to get this shitty thought outa my head and to make all these workout..i am..no matter wat it takes..i've never been so sure of anything in my life before..

getting outa here to finish up my long overdued assignment..

2006-06-06T07:14:00.000+14:00

50 Romantic things to do 4 your Boy/Girl Friend

1. Watch the sunset together.

2. Whisper to each other.

3. Cook for each other.

4. Walk in the rain.

5. Hold hands

6. Buy gifts for each other.

7. Roses.

8. Find out their favorite cologne/perfume and wear it every time you're together.

9. Go for a long walk down the beach at midnight.

10. Write poetry for each other.

11. Hugs are the universal medicine.

12. Say only when you mean it and make sure they know you mean it.

13. Give random gifts of flowers/candy/poetry etc.

14. Tell her that she's the only girl you ever want. Don't lie!

15. Spend every second possible together.

16. Look into each other's eyes.

17. Very lightly push up her chin, look into her eyes, tell her you love her, and kiss her lightly.

18. When in public, only flirt with each other.

19. Put love notes in their pockets when they aren't looking.

20. Buy her a ring.

21. Sing to each other.

22. Always hold her around her hips/sides.

23. Take her to dinner and do the dinner for two deal.

24. Spaghetti? (Ever see Lady and the Tramp?)

25. Hold her hand, stare into her eyes, kiss her hand and then put it over your heart.

26. Dance together.

27. I love the way a girl looks right after she's fallen asleep with her head in my lap.

28. Do cute things like write I love you in a note so that they have to look in a mirror to read it.

29. Make excuses to call them every 5 minutes

30. Even if you are really busy doing something, go out of your way to call and say I love you.

31. Call from your vacation spot to tell them you were thinking about them.

32. Remember your dreams and tell her about them.

34. Tell each other your most sacred secrets/fears.

35. Be Prince Charming to her parents.

36. Brush her hair out of her face for her.

37. Hang out with his/her friends.

38. Go to church/pray/worship together.

39. Take her to see a romantic movie and remember the parts she liked.

40. Learn from each other and don't make the same mistake twice.

41. Describe the joy you feel just to be with him/her.

42. Make sacrifices for each other.

43. Really love each other, or don't stay together.

44. Let there never be a second during any given day that you aren't thinking about them, and make sure they know it.

45. Love yourself before you love anyone else.

46. Learn to say sweet things in foreign languages.

47. Dedicate songs to them on the radio.

48. Fall asleep on the phone with each other.

49. Stand up for them when someone talks trash.

50. Never forget the kiss goodnight and always remember to say, "Sweet dreams."

hmm...we've done loads..and this juz adds on to the list of stuff we have planned to do in the future..rite dear?=)

i'm really blessed to have u in my life...and i'm so thankful for having the most loving,,most sacrificial,most understanding ..the sweetest guy as part of my life..and thats you my dear..=)hugs..

4 more days till you're done with the army..yeah!!=)

2006-06-02T07:32:00.000+14:00

hit by pangs of jealousy
why does all these inferiority come so strongly
i noe everyone has a past
i do too
but why did my heart ache when i saw it
i hate the sour achy feeling i felt
i wish i din have to feel it
i wish i din even have to see it
i wish i never knew
it sure does hurt
but i noe i muz be strong
sidekick told me i should be proud of who i am
coz thats who he loves
no more feeling inferior
no more jealousy
now,who am i trying to kid??
myself maybe..

2006-06-02T07:22:00.000+14:00

freaking pissed!!!!!!!!!!

it seriously doesnt pay to be kind!!!!that lumps is a piece of shit!!he zao lesson and then he realized he left his mcminn's textbook in his locker and coz they're clearing the lockers today so he msged me asking me to bring it home for him!!and its seriously damn heavy la..and he din even tell us that our other txbooks are in his locker too..and then ok i brought it home tho it was damn heavy coz mum came to pick me..then now he wans me to lug it to school tom coz he's selling it to a year 1 and he promised her that he'll give her tom..and he wans ME to lug it all the way to school for him!!NO WAY!!!and he is not even grateful i brought it home for him la...arrrgghh...pissed off with him..

no more being miss nice girl...i've had enough..he's seriously taking advantage of me la..free loading off us..coping our notes like nobody's business..irritating us during lecturers..basically juz pissing us off...arrghh...no more nice shit for u lumps..u ask for it..i've been telling u since year 1 sem 1!!!arrgghhh...

off to do my counselling script..

2006-05-27T19:59:00.000+14:00

tom!!tom!tom!!!

oh boy!!i cant wait..=)in less than 24 hours,my dear with be back in sunny island singapore..whee!!=)and in less than 12 hours time,he'll be on the plane back to sg...yeah!!i seriously cant wait..hehe..and to add to my joy,im going bead shopping later..ok..with the not so fun company..my mother..oh well..i wana buy loads of beads and stuff so i need my walking atm..wahaha..im sooo gona make use of her and buy all the lovely beads i wan..=)coz i kinda busted my money when i went chinatown with hazel yest..din really buy much beads but spent quite alot of the wires and hoops and stuff..its a really expensive hobby man..oh well..

anyway,i have to buy stuff for my creativity project too..im gona make a shirt..thinking of sewing lace and beads onto a toga..shall attempt to draw it out and post if so ur can give me ur suggestions and feedback yea??haha..im so excited to get started on it..but first,i've gota clear my tons of readings and get a nice fitting toga!!!pls let me noe if u see a nice one ok?but i want it plain and fitting k?=)

2006-05-27T06:34:00.000+14:00

2 more days...whee!!!i cant wait..i cant wait...and i got to talk to him just now!!!*jumps up and down*..=)im sooo soo happy la...oh man..just that few minutes talking to him's enough to make all my troubles and sadness go away..=)=)=)

juz finish a pair of nice gold earrings..haha..=)

kk..off to sleep now..gota wake up early for the student conference tom..nitez..=)

2006-05-26T08:28:00.000+14:00

part of my conversation with hazel juz now..a part which made me so touch and so blessed...i love my sidekick!!=)hugzz...

hazel_867@hazel.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says: (2:23:24 AM)
ok sleep tight

hazel_867@hazel.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says: (2:23:29 AM)
n pls dun cry anymore

hazel_867@hazel.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says: (2:23:39 AM)
cuz i revitalised u already!

hazel_867@hazel.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says: (2:23:44 AM)
u go girl

hazel_867@hazel.com (E-mail Address Not Verified) says: (2:23:48 AM)
u are stronger den u think

even tho i see u almost everyday of the week,i'm not sick of u and you'll always be my sidekick..knowing when im happy or down..knowing whats going on in my mind..and for never failing to be by my side especially during these 2 weeks..for being there throughout every event of these period..advicing and encouraging me when things seem so bleak and hopeless..you mean alot to me babe..=)

nitez...

2006-05-26T05:05:00.000+14:00

SHIT!!!im feeling so shitty-fied today...arrgghh...we had plans..we made plans..but all thanx to the mum..it juz vanished with the silence..arrgghh...hazel,lumps and me were suppose to go butter factory tom...we end at 8pm so we were suppose to head home then go there and party!!we so wana let it out and we also wana check out the place..then we were suppose to stay over at lumpy's place coz we've got to reach school for some conference thing at 8 so his house's the nearest but i figured we're gona cab down anyway coz i dun tink we can wake up early..haha..but now..the plan's FLOPPED!!!coz of mum's silence..man!she juz kept quiet when i asked her if i cld stay over at hazel's place..shitty la..i was sooo looking forward to butter factory..to dance and drink the night away...but now..arrrgghh..im so freaking pissed la...

i feel so shitty now..having so much mixed emotions..pissed off..missing him..tired..

wow!!i feel so blessed now..wat a change of emotions..a rollercoaster ride..something that i dun like..haha..coz im afraid of heights and stuff relating with g force..put me a spinning ride anytime..but not rollercoasters..haha..anyway,i've digressed..hazel my sidekick juz sent me this..i thot it was so meaningful and it juz made me feel the peace of God again...thanx babe!!=)

"Happy are those who have the God of Israel as their helper, whose hope is in the Lord their God." Psalm 146:5

Hope is a quality you are so accustomed to living that only in its absence do you truly understand its importance. Hope is what enables you to get out of bed in the morning. Hope is the strength in your backbones that allows you to withstand storms of trouble and pain. Hope keeps you going.

Your grounds for hope is in God’s Word and in his promises, in the history of steadfast love he has shown toward you and in the constant care and comfort he gives to all who trust him. Hope is your reliance on God’s blessings and provision for you. Hope puts the smile on your face as you go forward with patience, courage, confidence, and stability.

thanx babe!!=)i feel much better..u seriously know when im down and out..even without me telling u...i mean even on msn!!!how good's that..haha..thanx..i feel much better now..guess it's the late night syndrome and coz i went to look at the photos so it made me cry and feel all emo and all..thanx babe!!i love you!!=)hugzzz

2006-05-24T05:59:00.000+14:00

::And im so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishing you were still here
Said im so sick of love songs so sad and slow
So why cant i turn off the radio?

Gotta fix that calender i have
Thats marked July 15th
Because since theres no more you
Theres no more anniversary
Im so fed up with my thoughts of you
And your memory
And how every song reminds me
Of what used to be

Thats the reason im so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishing you were still here
Said im so sick of love songs so sad and slow
So why cant i turn off the radio?

(Leave me alone)
Leave me alone
(Stupid love songs)
Dont make me think about her smile
Or having my first child
Let it go
Turning off the radio

Cuz im so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishing she was still here
Said im so sick of love songs so sad and slow
So why cant i turn off the radio?
(why cant i turn off the radio?)

Said im so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishing she was still here
Said im so sick of love songs so sad and slow
So why cant i turn off the radio?
(why cant i turn off the radio?)::

a song that i guess so aptly reflects my feelings now..so sick of love songs..so tired of tears..so done with wishing that HE was still here..said im so sick of love songs so sad and slow..so why cant i turn off the radio..i remember really clearly that this was the very first song he sent to me over msn..So Sick by Neyo..how ironic..anyway,i created a playlist in my itunes called jeremy..and it contains all our songs..songs that he sent to me..songs that remind me and make me thing of us..so i have to fight back the urge to play songs from that playlist..i choose happier and more upbeat songs...to help me forget about HIM momentarily..or at least when im busy at the com..but nothing seems to help when im alone on my bed at night..he use to be the one who'll talk to me..sing to me till i get really tired so i can juz fall asleep immediately when i hang the phone with him..it sucks not having him around..my life's so draggy..im so tired coz i take a really long time to sleep...

sigh...hope everything will clear up when he comes back...5 more days...5 more days...hang in there steph...

2006-05-23T06:38:00.000+14:00

::i miss you::

2006-05-22T06:41:00.000+14:00

hmm...things are looking bleaker than it's suppose to be..i've tried talking to mum..nope..it's not working..got wei to talk to her also..but nope..she wun listen..oh well..we'll just take things slow...do things slowly and juz hopefully pray that mummy and daddy wills slowly accept him..

but i kinda feel inferior..all the girls that he use to like or dated are really the pretty kind..the slim,tall,long hair and all the jazz..and well..i'm the opposite..it totally sucks..i feel as if i cant compare to them..ok..steph..stop indulging in these self pity shit..but im not pitying myself..im juz confused..

and it doesnt help that mummy and daddy put all the doubts in my head..doubts about my relationship and all..doubts about my commitment..his committment..his intentions..my intentions..every thing..it just adds on..

i guess i muz admit that at this point i am questioning myself..i have lots of doubt in my head..lots of unanswered questions..yes i noe i did ask him..but somehow i feel that it isnt really answered...i duno where im going..i juz feel that im floating and letting the wind sweep me and juz go where it takes me..

time..i guess only time will tell..

Lord,grant me the patience to wait..grant me the heart to receive what ur trying to tell me..grant me the acceptance to do ur will even if it breaks my heart..help me Lord..in Jesus name i pray,Amen.

2006-05-15T07:04:00.000+14:00

this sucks!!!

my week has been going on a downhill ever since fri..people pls dun ask anymore..i dun wana talk about it and its nothing worth talking about..

it's juz like a dejavu...a dejavu of the past..i can see history repeating itself again..and i'm so scared...im so scared it will be like last time..sigh..i juz pray that things will work out somehow..anyway..no point calling or msging me now coz my phone's gone!!yes..confiscated by my parents as if im in sec school!!shitty!!sucks!!so fucked up can...like hello!!i'm 20!!and u treat me like im 15!!and ur seriously being very unreasonable..even kor tinks so..but juz that he din tell u..fucked up!!

wat makes things worse is that he went overseas for training..for 2 weeks!!!and it's juz the beginning!!and im missing him so much already..been crying myself to sleep ever since fri..it sucks..knowing he's sick,tired and all makes me so worried..dear..i'm praying for u every night..tho i cant be physically there for u..i noe God will k?

dear..im not going to let go and i noe u wun too rite?pls hand on and we'll go through this together..=)

i sooo cant wait for u to be back..

14 more days..

2006-05-09T05:31:00.000+14:00

my saturday was simple and sweet..and well spent..spent it with my dear..becks,chris..swannie,ben and yusheng..

shant bother elaborating coz im damn lazy..yes..LAZY's the word...but im really thankful for HIM..for making the effort to get to know the people that make up a huge part of my life..for willingly accompanying me to wherever i wana go..watever i wana do..for putting up with all my crap and nonsense..ok..i admit i've been pretty emotional these few weeks..loads of stuff going on in my mind..stressed out with my work..loads of deadlines that i dun even noe where to start..loads of projects that i cant remember who's in my grp for wat project..yes..that's how bad and messy my life is now..haha..coupled with the fact that the bitch just pissed me off and sparked off the sleeping volcano in me again..arrgggh...thanx dear for being there to listen..to encourage and support me on..for offering ur shirt when i cried..haha..thanx darling..=)

ok..off to prepare for my viva now..damn..im soooo slow..still have so much readings to do..and im so far behind...arrgghh...i still have so many other projects to do!!!!!AHHHHHHHHHH...i so feel like screaming my lungs out now..

kk..steph..calm down..deep breaths..one..two...three..ok..off the mug now..

"As i look at my life,
all the pieces fall into place.
it just wouldn't rhyme without you
as i see how my path
seems to go on seeing your face
the state of my heart
the joy that we have together
the magical times with you
the love that you shower me with
you're my everything
all of me
it's where my life lies forever..=)"

2006-05-06T07:59:00.000+14:00

"and you know what,
if you asked me whether i would rish losing everything,
to go back to st nicks and redo secondary school,
i would.
and this time,
i will remember to cherish every single moment there"

rip this off jose's blog..oh man..i teared like freaking shit when i read this part..how true..

i miss the days in sec school and i really miss hanging out with my bimbos EVERY DAY!!!oh man...how come i wasnt sick of all of u??haha..it's inevitable that we drift apart but i noe that our friendship will last a life time and we are all just only a call away from each other..=)

hugs and loads of love for my darling bimbos..=)

2006-05-06T07:40:00.000+14:00

to jay...

thanx for always being there for me
thanx for making me smile
thanx for lifting me up when i was down
thanx for sharing my joy,pain and anger
thanx for making bad things half as bad and
thanx for making happy things twice as happy..
my days are twice as bright with you around..

=)

2006-05-05T07:21:00.000+14:00

DAMN!!!!ok..im having a bitch fit!!!!freak la!!!!!i'm soooo pissed!!!arrgghh....that bitch is at it again!!!damn it...i thought i've already let go and move on..why must SHE come back and haunt me again!!!!!ok..i noe i have to see her at kor's engagemnent dinner but i kinda have already come to terms with it and now its back to haunt me!!

ok..it started out as me going to check my mail and kor forgot to sign out i i tink and it brought me to his mail box..i din mean to pry..but HER name stood out and i was tempted to read it..so i did..and i was in for a huge HUGE shock of my life..i noe i shld have been feeling more pissed and angry than anything but tears juz started rolling down and i had this huge aching in my heart as i read..i cried..i duno why..but i juz dun understand why must kor and eileen have to stand that BITCH!!!she shld juz vanish and disappear...she's causing so much pain to the people around her..to her sister..to my kor...like come on la..if u really love ur sister..cant u be happy seeing she's so happy??i admit i was like her when kor was with karen last time..but come on..i saw how happy kor was initial and i got over it and was truly happy for him..if u truly love the person,u'll put aside ur pride and truly be happy for them aint it??but NO...u have to choose to hurt ur sister and my dearest brother again!!fuck la!!i hate you so much that hearing ur name just pisses me so badly!!i really wish i dun have to see u ever again..u have no idea how much i've cried over this..no one knows..not even kor and eileen...only hazel's who's been there when all these happen..i dun understand why must u be so mean??she's ur sister..cant u be happy for her??it's her happiness here...i really hate you!!!FUCK!!!!ok..im sorry for the vulagarities but im really really pissed off...and it really hurts me when ur hurting my brother the person i respect and look up to the most!!i hate you!!!

NO ONE and i mean it NO ONE can ever hurt my family..and i hate you soooo much for it!!i dun tink i can ever find the heart to forgive u ...u've hurt someone i love so much and i dun tink im ever gona forgive u!!

i've cried enough..and enough is enough..u've pushed me to my limit and i've had it with u..i hope i dun have to ever see u ever again...BITCH!!!

2006-04-27T05:29:00.000+14:00

=)

i noe it's been a while since i've blogged...school's started and it's really talking it's toll on me..really drained and all..with all the stupid projects and assignements..thank god for jeremy who keeps me going each day...i'm really really happy with him..=)

no amount of words can describe the happiness i feel when im with him..i noe i've said this before but it seriously feels different and i feel that this is it..he's all i want in a guy and i feel so comfortable with him..he makes me laugh..he makes me feel like a small girl all over again..he's filled the void that sam left...in fact..he's more than filled the void..=)

yup..i cant wait for everyone's exams to be over..swannie and wei!!!it's left with the both of you!haha..so after that we can go out and hang out ok??dun worry..no matter how busy i am..i will try my best to make time for all of you!!=)

off to do my readings now..tonnes of it..

tata..=)

2006-04-25T05:08:00.000+14:00

ok..haha..i noe i have not blogged in ages..it's coz i've been really busy..busy with school...super alot of stuff to do and it doesnt help that i have super long days..mostly i end at 5/6pm and start ard 8/9am...my timetable totally sucks la..but i guess i juz have to hand in there and look forward to going to auzzie land to do my conversion..hopefully find a job there too..haha..

anyway,im missing everyone!!in no order of preference..wei,becks,jose,shee,thanya,swannie,bao...sucks la..supid exams are keeping us apart...and it doesn help that jose's half way round the other side of the world, bao's like 6h away from us and thanya's about 3h away!!grrr...

was soooo happy to see my darling becks that day at marina square..haha..and u beta be honoured k..coz you are the FIRST one to have met jeremy...haha..=)anyway,we'll all meet up and i'll intro him to all of your k??=)

im so happy..living in bliss now..and i thank god for bringing him into my life..he never fails to cheer me up and encourge me..and it really feels warm and nice worshipping on sundays with him...=)it brings a whole new meaning to worship and it feels good worshipping god with the one u love..thank god for that=)

so peeps..pls lets meet up after ur exams..i noe becks done...so wei,we're waiting for u to end!!!=)haha...

ok..off to clear my endless piles of journal readings and projects...arrghh...it's only the 2nd week of school and im already feeling the stress man..haha..

2006-04-03T16:25:00.000+14:00

if case any of you're wondering..it's official now!!=)

he asked me yest and i said yes..=)

i'm happy so pls be happy for me..=)i really am...it juz feels so different from the other relationships..this feels so right..so comfortable..so blissful...=)

i noe my search is over..=)finally...i noe exactly where i wana be...=)

2006-04-01T05:24:00.000+14:00

im happy...i really am...i guess all these might seem all too rush for me to confirm anything and i noe it's really too early to say anything right now..but all i can say is these 6 days with him is really amazing..it's not like we're together or wat..but i really really am happy...i feel this connection and somehow something inside tells me that he's the one..im not banging on anything nor will i place my hopes so high and hope for anything..but somehow i really feel contented...

2006-03-27T22:09:00.000+14:00

bliss...sheer joy!!im soooo happy...

i thought it was all in my head..i thought i could only dream...never did i know it will come true...thank god it all started on the correct foot...=)

happy..

steph is super happy and blessed now!!=)

2006-03-26T05:31:00.000+14:00

BROWNIE BATTER!
You scored 100% SWEET, 62% CHUNKY, and 74% UNIQUE!

brownie batter ice cream with a rich brownie batter swirl

Mmmm....you are a very sweet mix indeed! You are warm, loving, and caring to all those around you, but you're not boring in the least! You have a wild streak and a creative, unique streak, too. You are a great friend, an interesting person, and you know how to have fun without ending up crouching over a toilet bowl. Nice!

My test tracked 3 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender:

You scored higher than 99% on SWEET
You scored higher than 32% on CHUNKY
You scored higher than 73% on UNIQUE

Link: The Ben & Jerry's Ice Cream Flavor Test written by weered1 on Ok Cupid, home of the 32-Type Dating Test

hmmm...brownie batter..sounds yummmy...drools...haha..

ok i noe i haven been updating this blog..juz dun have the mood too..but i guess everyone sorta have an idea of wats going on in my life now..if not..ask me..

so i tink i'm mite stop blogging but i'll sign in to reply tags so peeps..juz tag k??=)

my hols are ending so i'm going to make full use of the rest of my hols!!!

auzzie land..here i come!!=)

2006-03-16T07:35:00.000+14:00

back..back from gentings..wohoo!!i love the place..ok..not the place..but i love the weather!!it's nice and cool..unlike singapore..coz the moment we entered KL..i started sweating like a pig..grrr...i want to blog more but im tired..

uploaded photos of the funfair and the ocs parade..

under My Bimbos..from photos no. 320 onwards..so becks and wei..go save it ok??=)
and under CJC..from photos no. 64 onwards..

nite world..

2006-03-11T04:49:00.000+14:00

st nicks fiesta tom!!whee!!!cant wait to set foot into st nicks again...im sure it's going to bring back loads of wonderful memories..but i was telling mummy juz now that im going to a funfair without tix!!haha..hopefully will see people i know to buy tickets from..bad sadly, shee and chris are not able to come..oh well.. at least i get to see my darling becks!!!whom im haven seen in ages!!oh man!!i miss u so much babe!!=)=)

anyway, im leaving for gentings on mon with my family so pls dun tempt me to go out k??hehe..

anyway, swannie,pls lets meet up once ur free-er ok??if not, we can always juz meet for dinner or something near ur place yea??alexandra village??ikea??or something yep??i miss u loads babe!!anyway,pls stop stressing ok??i love you gurl!!=)

off to make my necklace now..hehe..cant wait to see the end product!!=)

2006-03-09T08:40:00.000+14:00

oh gosh!!i cant believe myself!!i actually went clubbing!!!wohoo!!haha..

it started off quite midly..met hazel to celebrate her birthday at foster's cafe at holland v then i initially planned to go to the balcony at heeren to chill..but that woman wanted something different so we headed to zouk!!oh man!!i cant believe i actually let her influence me..coz i really hate crowds and smoke..so yeah..i practically hate clubbing..but oh well..it was her birthday so i decided to juz make her happy and went..

we were there reallly early..like at 11plus..so it was still quite quiet then..we got picked up by 2 groups of guys that were like freaking ugly!!omg!!there was even one lao ah pek la..i tink he's old enuf to be my father man..gosh!!wat is the world of guys coming to???we stayed at zouk and totally absorbed ourselves in the music..it was mambo jambo night..haha..so there were many 'sing-a-long' songs..haha..then lumpy came and we joined him at phuture..the rnb there was soooo much better!!haha..we danced and i totally love the pussycat dolls BEEP song!!haha...we dance the night away and partied coz we both wanted to get the SAMs off our mind..haha..yeah man!!SAMs sucks!!!

the night totally rocked man!!haha...

ok too bad we left our bags in the locker so we couldnt take photos in zouk itself..but here are some photos of the night..i'll let the photos do the talking!!=)

anyway..more photos uploaded under OT babes..so juz go check it out..i tink it's from photo no. 100 plus...not sure..go find urself..haha..

2006-03-07T06:40:00.000+14:00

shit!!!!i make the world's shittest friend!!!

firstly,i take the people around me for granted..i dun cherish and treasure them the way they are to be treated..damn!!!

and most importantly,today sucks!!!it was hazel's birthday and i totally forgot to wish her!!i even had the cheek to call her to bitch about sam..no wonder she sound so different..i still thought it was due to the aftereffects of watching munich..but little did i know!!!

i cant believe i did that..

and sam sucks!!!i hate myself..i hate everything..i wish i could juz bury myself and disappear away from the world!!this is totally freaked up!!!!

arrrghghh!!!!

2006-03-06T04:38:00.000+14:00

i tink i might close this blog down..either that i wun blog but will upload pics from time to time and will keep in touch thru the tagboard...

anyway..pics uploaded under my bimbos from no. 292 onwards..pictures from town-ing with wei..

2006-03-02T07:25:00.000+14:00

spend the day with my darling wei!!

towning..trying to find the perfect dress for her dinner and dance..but to no avail..someone most probably killed all the designers coz all the dresses and stuff are sooooo not nice..haha..we walked till we were so pekchek and so tired..so we headed to my house for a homecooked dinner..mummy specially invited her when she heard i was going out with wei..so wei..u beta be honoured man..haha..

love spending time wiht my bestie..u truly understand me sooo well and its freaking how u can read my mind and how we understand each other so much..and we tink so freaking alike..gosh!!its freaking sometimes!=)

and guess who i bumped into today in town??sam!!oh gosh!!he told me he was in town but i din expect to meet him...haha..happy!!=)

sentosa-ing with ruffles tom and wala-ing with hazel!!=)

nitez world..

2006-03-01T06:33:00.000+14:00

today was spent towning with my OT clique..minus lumpy..it was charlene,rina,bixia,hazel and me..great meeting up with charlene..altho she left OT for nus science, it was good that we still keep in contact and glad to know she's ok and enjoying her life..haha..shopped ard far east and dfs..felt like a taitai walking in to all the shops in dfs..coach,gucci!!wait for me till i start earning my money man!!haha..me and hazel plan to buy a coach bag with our first pay as on ot..haha..it's so gorgeous!!=)love it!!=)

and max brenner chocolate fondue and crepes for dinner!!*slurp*..yummy yummy...

yeah!!meeting bestie tom!!=)towning and loads of catching up to do!!i miss her so freaking much!!

din really enjoy myself today to the max coz of the stupid weather!!it's was like so hot i felt i was melting..and somehow i din really totally enjoyed the company..coz i felt quite bored of the same old people..haha..seeing them for the whole school sem's quite boring..and seeing them almost everyday again after the exmas seem to be taking its toll in me..haha..so i wasnt in a very happy mood today..

but i know tom will be a much much better day!!=)

and becks!!when are we going k-boxing???as usual..u take a zillion years to reply my sms lei!!haha..so whenwhen??

anyway,people..i'm leaving for gentings on the 13-15 march and perth on the 7-12april with my family...=)finally!!holidaying before the term and madness begins again..so looking forward to it!!haha..=)

2006-02-24T05:46:00.000+14:00

ok..that swannie wants me to update my blog..but i have NOTHNG to upadate about...coz the reason for my hiatus for MUGGING!!so unless u want to know all the stuff i studied about anat and physiology and the development of a human then....haha...

anyway,I FINALLY ENDED MY EXAMS!!!it's bye bye year 1 and hello year 2..that is if i pass..haha..juz glad the exams's over..it was ok la..i dun really expect any failures..ok maybe juz not a very good feeling after my physio paper today..but i tink it's still ok la..so juz hope and pray for the best...

ok..so let me enjoy my life and my holiday first before i have stuff to update rite??

anyway...tanning tom!!!cant wait!!!haha...tanning here i come!!!ben and jerry's here i come!!!hahahah...=)=)

here are some photos of the past that i chanced upon juz now..brought back so much memories...miss the days in t25...miss everyone...especially my feathered babes!!!

2006-02-05T07:03:00.000+14:00

THE BROTHER'S GETTING MARRIED!!!!!!

whahahahahaha...oh man..he finally proposed..and he bought a nice nice ring!!hehe..=)

ok..the wedding date's tentatively on the 29th Dec 2007!!!end of next year..details not confirmed yet..

hehe..i cant wait man..im going to design my bridesmaid's dress..i dun tink im going to be the main bridesmaid but i should be one of the jie mei thingy la..haha..and im going to design the dress..buy the cloth and go to a tailor to do for me..so it'll be unique and nice!!=)hehe...cant wait!!wohoo!!!!!

ok..gota go..juz wanted to blog this down so everyone will noe!!=)=)

2006-02-02T05:41:00.000+14:00

this few weeks has been and will be going to be worse than any of my academic years..even worse than Os and As..i have so many things to do, study and yet so little time..i know everyone has the same 24h but mine doesnt seem to be enough..i have a report due on mon which i only knew about today!!!i have my end of year main exam in 2 weeks time which i haven started at all!!!all these are enough to kill me.. i have done my require readings for my Lifestyle and language development module..and its damn freaking alot!!im so screwed...and there's anat and physio..all the memorizing of the muscles,nerves and the crappy brain!!!that small little thing in ur head is causing me a headache and there's so much things to study and memorize..thank god for the recent prac tests tho..so some stuff are still fresh but then again..i duno..

stress.............

need to go rush out my project now..so in case ur wondering the reason for my recent and going to be hiatus..you juz read the reason...

grr....

2006-01-27T05:19:00.000+14:00

physio and anat prac's finally over!!!now for the big hurdle..the final exams!!coming up on the 17th feb!!everyone..pls pray for me..grr...i haven started revision yet..i'm so screwed...

i have so much things to blog that i dun even noe where to start..my darling bao's leaving for the auzzie land tom...grr..i'm so going to miss her..but oh well..at least i'm going over to auzzie land in march..hopefully i'll be able to drop by brisbane and pay her a visit!!=)=)cant wait...

im going to miss my chicky lo-ke ba-o ba-o!!!=)

i love my darling feathered babes!!=)

2006-01-23T03:40:00.000+14:00

SWANNIE'S FAST AND EFFICIENT!!!=)=)haha..photos of saturday night outing with her and bao are uploaded and they are under the link together with the rest of the pics..under SURPRISE FOR BAO!=)haha..

friday night..was prezzie making time..due to our super tight schedule, we cld only meet on fri at night..let's see..i met her at 7pm and we did till 1230am!!!gosh!!!BA-O BA-O, u better appreciate it and u better hang it in auzzie ok??and admire it everyday!!!!haha..=)wel..hope u like it ok??tho times spent together are short and much lesser compared to jc days but it's the memories and the quality time spent together tat matters ya?and the memories will last a life time!!=)=)love you swannie and bao!!=)

sat..had nyp open house..manage to talk to 2girls who seem really interested..but were facing the same prob i did when i entered nyp..the fact that all ur peers are in uni and ur stuck in a poly..oh well..i've gotten over that stage..=)hope to see the two of them next sem!!meet the chicky and swannie in town..and i finally drove!!haha...caught memoirs of geisha...it was not a bad show..although we bought the 830 show at 7pm..there was already no more space n we had to sit in the 3rd row!!!and we came out with aching necks and backs and my butt hurt too..ahah..

times spent with my feathered babes was wonderful!!!if only we could spend more time tog but bao's leaving soon...*sobz*..i'm so going to miss her!!!bao,u better come online more often then we can talk ok??=)

ok..time to watch tv..haha..nite..

2006-01-21T07:43:00.000+14:00

some photos of the t25 girls class outing ages ago!!!having silly fun..haha..link at the side under pictures..did it only now coz bao only sent it recently..slow poke!!hehe..

finally..ended anat prac test..it was ok..but i think i wun do well coz i found out quite a few mistakes..but hopefully i wun screw it up too badly..having physio prac next thur..xianxian..

anyway..im very tired to blog now..another day..

nyp open house tom..having duty from 2-430..grr...sleep..sleep..i need sleep...

nite nite world..

2006-01-19T04:56:00.000+14:00

T H E B I R T H D A Y S O N G
Written by Corrinne May Ying Foo
Copyright 2003, Corrmay Gourmet Music (ASCAP)

Don't worry about that extra line
That's creeping up upon your face
It's just a part of nature's way to say you've grown a little more
Trees have rings and thicker branches
Kids shoes get a little tighter
Every year we're getting closer to who we're gonna be
It's time to celebrate the story of how you've come to be

Happy Birthday, my friend
Here's to all the years we've shared together
All the fun we've had
You're such a blessing
Such a joy in my life
May the good Lord bless you
And may all your dreams come true

So light a candle on your cake
For every smile you've helped create
For every heart and every soul you've helped to grow
A little more
A few more pounds, a little more grey
Don't count the years, just count the way
It takes a little time to go from water into wine
Don't ever lose the wonder of that child within your eyes

Happy Birthday, my friend
Here's to all the years we've shared together
All the fun we've had
You're such a blessing
Such a joy in my life
May the good Lord bless you
And may all your dreams come true

this is especially for my darling MICHELLE LOKE BAOBAO!!!who turned 20 last sat!!!=)gosh!!we're all getting old..soon it'll be my turn to hit the big 2!!!=)how time flies..

anyway,HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY AND BLESSED BELATED BIRTHDAY BAO!=)tho it's kinda late the blog it here..but hope u enjoyed ur day and hope me and swannie's phone calls at the stroke of midnight brightened up ur special day!!=)tho times spent with u is short this time but i treasure every min and times spent with u and swannie!!hurry go finish ur degree and get back here to treat our chubby,lady,mitty and ruffles k??hehe..i love you loads and loads bao!!=)*hugzzzzzzzzzz*

2006-01-12T05:44:00.000+14:00

Little Superhero Girl by Corrine May

I feel like a little girl
Trying to conquer the whole wide world
Everybody wants a piece of me
And I just don't know where to turn
I've got work piled up to my head
All I want to do is jump into bed
And wash away my troubles
with lemonade
Play hide and seek
with the boy next door
Take a trip to Singapore and
Imagine how I'll make the world
a better place

All I need is a good disguise
One where nobody can recognise
That I'm feeling so small
All I need is a secret weapon
I've gotta have faith
Zapping monsters into outer space
I'm gonna be a Superhero..

i love corrine may!!she's damn good!!her voice's so soothing!!peeps,go listen to her!!!and this song so right for the moment..feel like the whole world wans a part of me and im so drain..my lecturer says this sem's hard but year 2 sem 1's gona be even worse..much much lesser sleep and u cant forget about making that pimple go away..damn!!!how am i going to survive..grr...

mugging time..

2006-01-11T05:28:00.000+14:00

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to obedience and warmth.

In love, you feel the most alive when your partner is patient and never willing to give up on you.

You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was insecure and in constant need of reassurance.

Your ideal relationship is open. Both of you can talk about everything... no secrets.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.

In this moment, you think of love as something you thirst for. You'll do anything for love, but you won't fall for it easily.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

how true!!!wahaha...

2006-01-10T09:21:00.000+14:00

THE BEST THINGS IN LIFE:

DONE:
spending time with my family
spending time with my bimbos(wei,becks,jose,shee,thanya,jun)
spending time with my feathered babes(swannie and bao)
savouring dark chocolates and licking that yummy chocolate filled finger
having to sink my teeth into that juicy strawberry dipping with dark chocolate
hearing your voice over the other line
the day you came up to me and SAID i love you
snuggling under my warm sheets while the rain patters on my window
listening to sappy love songs late in the night
receiving a sunflower bouquet from the one i love
bubble baths with lotsa bubbly bubbles
receiving sms-es from my babes when they say they miss and love me!!=)=)

NOT DONE:
a bimbos reunion!!(when's that ever gona come???)
a wedding filled with love and sushine,purple flowers,husband in a tail-coat and my darlings as my bridesmaid!=)
having wei as my maid of honour!!=)
flying to switzerland with my love, sipping champagne and eating chocolates and ski-ing!!

2006-01-09T06:25:00.000+14:00

haven been blogging awhile coz i'm really super busy these few days..anyway, i'll be freaking busy these few weeks..from now till the end of my year end exams staring in mid feb..and after that is 1month plus solid hols..no attachments..no projects..no waking up early for school..no more shit!!!free!!but it will be my last hols in my 3 years coz the rest of the hols will be all attachments..grr...coz we have to fulfill this shit of having to do 1000hours of clinical attachemtns for us to get our diploma to go overseas..grr....

anyway,the week's highlight was on THUR!!!outing with my feathered babes...caught the family stone..it was an ok show..a situation of how a weird family finally understood the real meaning of love and acceptance..or so that's how i see the whole gist of the show..it was pretty sad at the end..photos below..

and today!!!MY FRIST MAIDEN TRIP OUT ALONE!!!!in the car!!!!ALONE ALONE ALONE!!!ok..we were suppose to go to church..but i tink mummy's stomach's not good..so she vomitted..juz like me..coz she felt bloated..juz like me again..haha..so daddy wanted to look after her..so he looked at me and said,"ok, u go church on your own k?"..at that point i was like..ARE YOU KIDDING!!it's raining and i have to take the mrt and bus??and i'm late!!!but i kept quite and then before i cld do anything,daddy said,"take the car keys from the drawer and drive carefully k?on the lights..drive slow..plan ur route..blahblah.."oh man!!i almost cldn't believe my ears!!me..driving all alone in daddy's car to church!!!!whee!!!!!ok..thank god there was no accident..i felt so good..hehe..

ok..time to study..mugmugmugmug..grr..and i have a presentation tom and my grp's so not prepared..gota go prepared my script now..tata..=)

2006-01-01T07:53:00.000+14:00

i know its a love song but i wana dedicate the song below to FOO WUI ERN, my darling bestie,my darling who has been with me for the past 7 years,who has been with my through every single ups and downs in my life,who has supported me,encouraged me,waked me up from my stupidness,who has been the source of my joy and also sadness at times..

wei,i wana thank you at the very start of ear 2006...thank you for all the shit you've been through with me and thanx for being the great friend u are!!i know we'll have many more years of sweet friendship..=)i know its so much mushy and cliche but i will still say it..i wun be who i am today without u..im serious..thanx wei!!=)love you!!=)

Jesse McCartney-Because You Live

Staring out at the rain with a heavy heart
It's the end of the world in my mind
Then your voice calls me back like a wake up call
I've been looking for the answer
Somewhere
I couldn't see that it was right there
But now I know what I didn't know

Because you live and breathe
Because you make me believe in myself when nobody else can help
Because you live, girl
My world has twice as many stars in the sky

It's alright, I survived, I'm alive again
Cuz of you, made it though every storm
What is life, whats the use if your killed inside
I'm so glad I found an angel
Someone
Who was there when all my hopes fell
I wanna fly, looking in your eyes

Because you live and breathe
Because you make me believe in myself when nobody else can help
Because you live, girl
My world has twice as many stars in the sky
Because you live, I live

Because you live there's a reason why
I carry on when I lose the fight
I want to give what you've given me always

Because you live and breathe
Because you make me believe in myself when nobody else can help
Because you live, girl
My world has twice as many stars in the sky

Because you live and breathe
Because you make me believe in myself when nobody else can help
Because you live, girl
My world has everything I need to survive

Because you live, I live, I live

2005-12-31T05:45:00.000+14:00

password changed..

i have no idea why but somehow i got the feeling that people are reading my blog..they seem to know stuff that they are not suppose to..so password's changed!!

school's starting soon..2weeks of hols have juz come to an end juz like tat..sucks man..anat and physio tests will be my welcome gift back to school..gosh!!it juz seems like yesterday that i'm in j1 but its been 2 years..

anyway..guess wat!!im back on good terms with sam again!!whee!!dun worry people..i know wat im doing..i have no more feelings for him..maybe juz missing the familiarity feeling and thats it..so its juz purely frenz and im thankful for tat coz i tink i've already lost a super good friend in ben and i dun tink i wana lose sam too..

christmas aint the same without you..thank god u came and appear at the right time..ur like a godsent coz u appeared at the stroke of midnight..=)your call came and brightened and completed my christmas..have been spending the last 4 christmas-es with you that i dun think this chirstmas will feel the same without u ard..and thank you for the lovely present!!=)=)it was sheer shock and delight bumping into u that day..=)and thanx for the o-so-frequent talks these few days..=)

i love and hated 2005...it was wonderful coz i got into the course i wanted even with my shitty-fied grades..but i hated it coz of ben..how i juz lost a friendship like that..over a stupid matter..oh well..like what lumpy said..if thats the case means he doesnt even bother abt the friendship and our friendship means absolutely nothing to him..

but thank god for bringing me thru all these to make me stronger..i juz pray that 2006 will be a better year..and i hope it will bring all my friends closer together and that we'll never drift apart..and may the memories last a lifetime!!=)

i love you girlfriends!!=)

happy happy new year in advance!!=)=)

2005-12-31T02:32:00.000+14:00

im sure these are more than enough to explain how much fun i had with my feathered darlings!!=)love them love them..

had so much silly stupid feathery fun..period!

haha..and swannie's so freaked out by the photos at the bottom..wahaha...silly silly girl..=)

2005-12-26T05:46:00.000+14:00

bestie and me fooling ard with the photo booth in my com..haha..other photos too..but sensored!!!haha...

christmas this year's simple..no fancy presents, no jollying, no carolling but it was perfect..spent the weekends with my family and the extended family at mama hse..feasting on stuffed turkey,honey baked ham,potato salads etcetc and a humongous yummilious chocolate logcake!!a 2kg logcake that i ate abt 1/4!!!damn!!coz the aunties and uncles were complaining abt growing fat and the cholestrol and so i smacked the whole cake in front of me and started eating and then my aunty suddenly screamed so she found out that i ate like 1/4 of the cake by myself..gosh!!!haha..wad a piggy but who cares?it's chocolate!!!!rarrrrr...

and i love the prezzies my family got for me..got a top from potpurri..a bag from pony..and the best of all is a roxy brown jacket from the bro and eileen!!!!how cools thhat!!!haha..

2005-12-24T13:44:00.000+14:00

All I Want For Christmas Is You - Mariah Carey

I don't want a lot for Christmas
There is just one thing I need
I don't care about the presents
Underneath the Christmas tree
I just want you for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true...
All I want for Christmas is
You... yea yea

I don't want a lot for Christmas
There is just one thing I need
(and I) Don't care about presents
Underneath the Christmas tree
I don't need to hang my stocking
There upon the fireplace
Santa Claus won't make me happy
With a toy on Christmas day
I just want you for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true
All I want for Christmas is you...
You baby

Oh I won't ask for much this Christmas
I won't even wish for snow
(and I) I'm just gonna keep on waiting
Underneath the mistletoe
I won't make a list and send it
To the North Pole for Saint Nick
I won't even stay awake to
Hear those magic reindeer click
'Cause I just want you here tonight
Holding on to me so tight
What more can I do
Baby all I want for Christmas is you
You baby

All the lights are shining
So brightly everywhere (so brightly yea)
And the sound of children's
Laughter fills the air
And everyone is singing (oh yea)
I hear those sleigh bells ringing
Santa won't you bring me the one I really need -
won't you please bring my baby to me...

Oh I don't want a lot for Christmas
This is all I'm asking for
I just want to see baby
Standing right outside my door
Oh I just want you for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true
Baby all I want for Christmas is
You (You) baby

All I want for Christmas is you baby...

all the hustle and bustle of rushing to get all the last min christmas shopping done..the furious scribbling of the pen for the many christmas cards to be given away...the decorations and the snowy feeling..it seems that christmas these days are juz the exchanging of presents,cards and greetings..but christmas's not all about that..

it's suppose to be a time to remember the birth of Christ, to celebrate HIS birth which causes our escape from hell to heaven..the blessed birth of our Lord..it's also a time when brothers and sisters make right with each other..the exchanging of gifts to show our apprecaition for all that they have done for us..a time for us to thank them..a time for us to spend time with our families that we so oftne neglect and take for granted..

today and yesterday's perfect...spent the entire afternoon yesterday with my darling BECKS!=)shopped ard to buy clothhes for her party..she bought a really really nice top!!!=)=)and sexy too!!had so much fun with her..and she's still the same..still a real blur and clumsy queen..haha..and embarassing as ever!!haha..but i love you babe!!=)hope u had fun at the party yep??and remember i always love you!!=)haha..

today was spent with my darling bestie WEI!!=)=)ate at holland v..shopped ard and hang out at my place..thanx for making the effort although i know u are very busy..i really treasure the times we spent together..tho today was just hanging out and we din do anything spectacular but it's the best!=)really miss u babe..miss the times when i can see u everyday and just updatee u every day..haha..altho i dun do that now but i know you'll always be there when i need u!=)

and wei, YOU are the super super super duber privileged one to be the first to sit in my car that i drive..as in without my parents and it's just you and me in the car!!so u beta be honoured k??and ur wish came thru rite??to be the first to sit in my car!!haha..it was super unplanned but somehow it happened!!haha..and i'm so suprised my mother actually allowed!!gosh!!wat poison did u give her to make her trust u so much??haha..and u know she was so freaking happy that you were coming to my place coz she was complaining she hasnt seen u in ages!!haha..tink she treats u betta then me man..when u come, she buys so much food!!haha...

mama's house later for turkey and ham!!and somewhat like a thanksgiving dinner!!haha..cant wait..yummy..i'm so hungry!!beta mama's going to cook a storm!!*drools*

anyway, MERRY MERRY MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!!hope u have a very merry and joyous christmas!!=)

2005-12-24T08:05:00.000+14:00

thur was funfunfunfun!!!spent the first half of the day with my mummy..juz lying on the bed and talking rubbish with her..=)

my fatimah swan came to pick me up for dinner..hehe..thanx fatimah!!=)suppose to meet the rest at city hall then bao called so went to pick her at newtown mrt..and thanx to my great sense of direction, swan had to make one big and humongous round and we ended at the wrong side of the road..hehe..then we kinda fumbled and guess our way to esplanade,trying to avoid the orchard jam...met up with the t25 gurls at esplanade..wanted to go glutton square but it was raining so ate at the jap place..took lotsa photos..sheer delight!!!=)shall post if after swannie and bao upload it!!so SWANNIE AND BAO!!HURRY UPLOAD!!=)hehe..we really did stupid stuff but i had fun...then we walked ard and that impatient swan cant wait to get to walawala so we left the girls..spent a good say 20min waiting for parking lots and we kept missing them coz we kept driving ard..we reached walawala kinda in time to see shirlene and the band!!they rock!!!!and good thing haz was there so we could get a table..it was freaking pack by the time we reached..but i love the band!!they absolutely rock!!love them love them!!=)felt so good hearing them sing..told swan and bao that i was going to drown my sorrows by drinking..haha..

anyway, confession time to swan and bao wasnt that bad..haha..finally told them abt ---..glad to get it off my chest and i feel bad hiding from them..phew!!one load off my mind..haha..

i love my swannie and bao!!=)=)

swannie: hope u woke up in time for the bidding and i hope u got the modules u wanted k??=)=)hehe..
bao: pls dun go!!i'm so going to miss u!!lets hang out moremoremoremore k??=)max brenner yea??=)

2005-12-22T03:42:00.002+14:00

i'm really disappointed..disappointed at the way things turn out..disappointed at ur attitude..disappointed at myself..disappointed at the way i reacted..

today was not a bad day at all at the start..stayed at home with mummy..met swannie in town to do some shopping..up till here..everything's perfect...it went down hill the moment i went to cut my hair..the stupid hairdresser at The Scene cut my hair till i look like a stupid frigging mushroom!!ok..never mind abt that coz hair can always grow again rite??

actually i juz typed out the entire sequence of events..but i guess it's no point..it juz adds on to my sadness..i cried my eyes out all the way from the mrt to the bus stop and at the bus stop i juz sat there and cried..it juz hurts damn bad...i've never felt this way ever since i broke up with sam..the way he talked to me juz reall hurts me..it really sucks to have the one you feel so much for talk to u that way and he has NEVER spoken in that tone to me before..

i guess he juz doesnt know wat he did really affected me so badly and hurts me so much..he doesnt know he means so much to me and it really sucks for me to hear him talk to me this way..

i wish he'd call me now to clear things up..for me to have a chance to say i'm sorry..for the friendship to be patched back again..but i guess it'll only happen in my dreams..

i dun tink things will ever be the same between us again..we'll never be that close again..no more late night conversations and crappy shit..no more msg-ing nonsense and having fun again..everything's gona be different..i noe..no more YOU when i do badly in tests..no more YOU to cry to when i need some one to hear my shit and hear me scream,wail and complain..no more YOU to accompany me when i cannot sleep..no more YOU to go out with me when i'm bored..no more YOU....

2005-12-20T04:54:00.000+14:00

juz wana shout out a big thank you to all those who were so concern for me during this period of time..sending out a very gigantic loving slurpy sloppish big hug especially to darling HAZEL!!!you were there for me when i needed you,always ready to hear me rant,scream,shout,cry and bawl my eyes out..you gave me the comfort and encouragement i needed..you were right beside me every step of the way..and i was really really touched when i saw u crying coz u saw me crying over anat results..thanx babe!!i duno what i'll be without you!!love you loads darling!!=)=)i'm going to cherish and treausre the 3 years we'll have together in NYP,the 1 year overseas and the many years we'll work side by side after we grad k??hehe...rem what i told u abt regretting when i look back??now,i'll make sure it wun happen!!=)=)love u babe!!=)

hols now!!=)whee!!like finally..but it's so pack...projects,studying and mugging,attempting to finish the 1000 piece jigsaw for the dear brother,meeting up with my becks,chris,wei,feathered babes,t25 peeps...loads of stuff to do...

::i dun seem to know you anymore::

2005-12-19T06:32:00.000+14:00

::pissed::disappointed::sad::confused::frustrated::unwell::sick::missing you::tired::

everything went downhill the moment you looked at me and said,"why dun u juz go home?"

2005-12-15T06:07:00.000+14:00

What will i Do (by Natalie Burks)

::I'm not really sure of the words to say
If only you knew that I feel this way
I wanna give my heart to you
Show me the way that you want me to

I know for sure there's a place for us
I'm counting the days till I feel your touch
You come to me when I dream at night
When I'm with you it will be so right

If you could see the love in my eyes
You should know that I'm on your side

Ohh ohh ohh
I'd be yours
You'd be mine
Ohh what will I do::

all i want for christmas is what i've already got..my wonderful family..my bimbos and my feathered frenz..thats all i ever need..i dun need big cars,big houses,more clothes,shoes,bags or watever material gifts the world can offer..all i need is love and support from the people i love..and i've got that..thank you god for everything!!

confession time to swannie and bao soon when we meet up..opps..haha....owe them big time but the both of u had beta not laugh at me k??haha....enjoy ur trip swannie darling!!=)cya and meet up SOON!!!!we still have yet to bring chicky to bugis village,max brenners and so many other places!!haha..=)=)

pls pray for my mummy..her operation's this fri..pls pray..i'll be going with her and daddy to the hospital on fri..

dear God,pls be with mummy and the surgeon during the operation..pls deliever mummy safely out of the operating theatre..pls god,bless the surgeons's hands and pls be close to mummy,daddy,korkor and me..help us to trust you coz you are the almighty god who gives his children only the best..the only christmas gift i wan this year is for mummy's operation to be successful...thank you god..in Jesus name i pray.Amen..

2005-12-13T06:32:00.000+14:00

i had sooooo much fun!!!we are the maddest people on earth!!we were so bored of town so decided to explore singapore..

we decided to drop at raffles place mrt and juz walk where our legs can take us..

so we walked to circular road..times square..found our little secret garden and the enchanted forest rite hazel??haha..walked somemore to chinatown...it's madness..we walked from raffles place mrt to chinatown..ok..i din seem like a long walk but i saw a different side of singapore and all the christmas deco was fantastic!!especially the ones at Great Eastern!!haha..=)=)

had murtabak and teh tarik at this indian place..finally satisfied my indian food craving!!haha..it was good..but good thing we shared..if not..we'll prob explode after the meal..hehe..

today marks the end of my tests but the beginning of the mad rush for the completion of projects..grrr...kbox on wed's cancelled!!tanning session instead!!hehe...=)=)

reunion dinner with t25 this sat at marina bay!!!hopefully everyone can turn up...haven seen all in a longlong while..but that stupid swannie's going to hk!!grrr....wat a time to go!!but it's ok..she beta remember me when she's there!!*hinthint*...get the hint swan????hehe...

2005-12-12T02:36:00.000+14:00

the one who's stood by me thru thick and thin,thru happiness,angry,sadness and the countless heartbreaks i went through..
the one who understands me inside out, the one who's just a phone call away
the one who's worlds apart from me but yet soo alike in other areas..
we have different interest,diff taste and different paths in life but our bonds so strong,nothings gona tear us apart..

wei,i'll always be here for u and though i might fail u but i want u to know i'll always love you and support u in everything k??

=)

to me ,YOU are perfect!!=)

2005-12-11T05:18:00.000+14:00

pictures uploaded!!courtesy of darling swannie!=)under 091205 outing..thanx babe for being so efficient!!haha...

~today was perfect, juz perfect~
having u by my side is the best thing i could ever ask for =)

::perhaps there is love?perhaps there is more than friends?perhaps bothe like each other and dun wana say??perhaps perhaps perhaps::
somthing hazel sent to me..haha..how lame can u get babe!!=)

2005-12-10T06:38:00.000+14:00

happy happy happy!!!wheee!!!!!i'm a happy happy happy princess gurl!!=)met up with my sugary darling feathered babes...sorry babes for being so late...overslept..not feeling well and i was really really sleep deprived man...but thanx for waiting so patiently kk??=)anyway B&J was GREAT GREAT GREAT GREAT!!yummy..if only i can like eat hat every freaking day..but i'll juz grow and grow and BOMB!!i'll prolly burst into a fountain of chocolate...hehee...

headed to town on the free shuttle bus and i over head this guy talking to his friend abt children and why did his parents bring him into the world..he was like saying what's the point of having children and wat benefits it'll bring next time..i mean seriously la..u dun juz pop out children looking for benefits the child can bring to u rite??it's the process and the irreplacable joy that the child brings..im not a mother myself duh...but after my clinicals, i cherish life more and i see children as a source of happiness for me..even i can feel that way juz by interacting with them only once for abt an hour the most..wat more wld their mother see the child as??i was so pissed off that i almost turn and say to the guy to ask him to shut up..like seriously la..he was asking the gurl why bring the child into the world when u have no gains..no monetary benfits blahblah..and even if they can provide u with the benefits, you'll be too old to enjoy and yadadada...wth!!i almost gave him one tight slap!!how can such people even exist??why muz people do stuff hoping for return??doesnt it take the joy outa ur life??like ur always looking out for returns and if pple dun do anything of dun appreciate what u do, you'll be damn miserable??why bother??i mean juz do stuff for people and dun expect anything..juz do it coz u love and care for the person or coz u juz wana help...no hidden agenda..wun ur life be more meaningful and fruitful that way??

and why muz people be so superficial at times??i'm included too...sometimes the masquerade's too much for me and i wish i can juz disappear and exit and maybe the director of my life would say CUT soon...

i juz thot i pen down my thots abt my clinicals...people get inspired by the OTs, the staff but i get inspired not by these people but by the patients..their grit and determination really puts me to shame..the fact that i take the simple things in life for granted while they are contented and happy with watever they have and bravely face up to reality abt their condition really inspires me..no matter how disabled their condition has made them, they still press on in life and make the best outa everything..where else here i am..having everything in life..a wonderful loving and supportive family, loving and the bestest friends, the ability to walk, talk, express myself, go to school without difficutly am taking so many things for granted...never satisfied with watever i have..always wanting more..wanting my way and sulking and throwing tandrums when i dun get what i wan...it really woke me up from my dream and let me see the real world..people out there with disabilities are living their life to the fullest and making the best outa everything and being happy while here i am taking every thing for granted..it really puts me to shame..and the fact that they are so determine to do their therapy well and finish every task given to them...despite their young age they are able to understand all these stuff and appreciate it makes me wonder if i'm really mature...they really put me to shame..but i'm going to learn from them and make the best outa my life....

in an emo mood today so forgive me for all the thoughts and stuff..but it really affects me alot and it really makes me see things from an entirely different light..and i really thank god for putting me in this course coz i'm reall enjoy what i learn and going on clinicals not only teach me the practical aspect of my course but it teaches me the very basic lessons of life that could never be taught to me in school...

anyway headed to town after great world..walked ard and tried shoes..found a pretty nice bag from substance but they said it's not worth the price..coz it doesnt really look that ex..but i quite like it..but decided not to buy coz its not really that cheap..wanted to eat at fish and co. at wheelock but we were told we had to wait 30 - 45 min...called glass house but they said they were full house and had to wait ard the same time too..so decided to stay there..waited at the bar and started talking...and when we finally got our seats then our VIP came strolling in..that stupid ben came soooo late and he came juz in time..so he din had to wait..juz sat down and ordered..idiert!!haha...took lotsa photos...waiting for swannie to upload..haha...

by the time we finish it was already quite late so we juz walked from orchard to cine then walked back to orchard mrt..how lame's that..haha..but yes..we were tat bored coz everywhere's close and everyone was very full..ok...everyone except me..haha...then we headed home...

thanx for the great great company!!i love u guys!!=)

next mission...chocolate fondue at max brenners!!wohoo!!!=)and plan the christmas party swannie!coz ur the free-est and the slackest of us all now..haha..quick tell me earlier so i can book my place k??haha...=)=)

2005-12-09T07:01:00.000+14:00

my feathered darlings!!=)=)whom i'm seeing later for nice yummilious BEN AND JERRYS ice cream!!wheee.....B&J's with my darlings=heaven!!=)cant wait cant wait!!

i've been so sleep deprived lately and i'm going out everyday that i'm sick now!!nanenanebooboo...serves me right!!my nose's killing me..have been sneezing like mad ever since morning and it feels so raw now man...grr...it beta be ok by tom...if not i cant taste my icecream!!that will be a disaster....haha...

i cant wait for the hols..i cant wait for christmas...i cant wait for kboxing with my babes..i cant wait for sleepovers and christmas parties..i cant wait for the christmas service..i cant wait to exchange christmas prezzies with my love ones..and that stupid jose's abandoning us for the hairyhairy...hmmphh...so we're all going kbox WITHOUT silly goose jose!!hmphh...haha..i miss u so freaking much babe!!forget hairy and come back!!!haha...=)

tata..

uploaded pics..or rather i stole swannie's pics...under My Feather Babes...

2005-12-08T05:36:00.000+14:00

my feathered babes!!=)

i had the most wonderful time with my feathered babes on tue!!towning with them..dinner at dome and we caught CHICKEN LITTLE!!it was so freaking hilarious!!i love them soooo much!!thank God everyone's still the same..bao's still as motherly as ever..swannie's still as crazy and fishy..haha...i love them both!!=)thank god for putting them in my life t bring so much joy and laughter!!=)can't wait to see them this fri!!=)BEN AND JERRY'S!!!!!=)=)

thank god for becks and chris...had a great time catching up and updating with them..haven met chris sinc elike i duno when..prom maybe??hhaa...but thank god for the strong and still going 13 years of friendship and couting!!=)love you gurl!!=)and thank god for bringing them both into my life...it would never be the same without them!!=)

thank god for putting my darling dearie bimbos(wei,becks,jose,shee,thanya,jun),my feathered darlings(swanie and bao),chris,ben,yusheng into my life...things will never be the same without them!!=)they truly understand me inside out and i feel sooooo comfortable and stress free when i'm with them..no mask..no masquerade..no pretences..no temporal joy...juz plain me..the true me...i love them!!thanx dears for being in my life and making me who i am...i love you guys!!=)

anyway..i tried to upload pics..but mac doesn seem to be able to allow me to upload....grrr....

2005-12-02T02:58:00.000+14:00

i'm back!!like finally man..but i've gota scoot off to study physio..grr...missing my babes freaking alot!!!wei,becks,jose,shee,thanya,junmin,swannie and bao!!!gosh!!i miss spending time with u darlings...

been pms-ing alot lately and i realize that it's you guys that i turn to when im in shit or when i'm down...ur care and concern makes my day and i love you babes sooo much!!

wei,becks,shee,jun..KTV soon yep??after the 6the of dec kk??i cant wait!!!shopping,plenty of sleep overs,our christmas parties and juz hanging out!!i cant wait for school to end...

i hate my life in school..the life sux..i love my course but i seriously have no life there...no bimbos,no feather darlings= no life..simply plain boring!!!!

so quick people...date me out!!

missing u babes loads and loads..

2005-11-25T09:05:00.000+14:00

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i hate it when blogger cuts off my pics coz of the stupid stuff up there!!

can anyone tell me how to remove it??jose help!!=)hehe..

2005-11-25T08:57:00.000+14:00

cant wait to see them later!whee!!!=)

2005-11-20T08:45:00.000+14:00

i love you wei..thanx for everything!!=)

we'll meet up soon okie!!after our stupid exams yep yep??=)

2005-11-20T08:41:00.000+14:00

MY "TWIN" SISTER CUM SIDE KICK CUM CRACKED HEEL BABE!!=)

love you truckloads dearie!=)

2005-11-20T04:25:00.000+14:00

my lovely feathered babes whom i love and cherish loads!!=)

cant wait for tom!!bao will be back!!wohoo!!yipee!!!

2005-11-19T06:24:00.000+14:00

i couldnt resist doing a collage of my darling babes that i miss soooo freaking much..no pic of wei coz i dun have a nice one with her..hehe..wei,lets take MORE photos okie??but she'll always be my darling babe and bestie!!=)i miss u loads girl..

ok..off to study anat now..tata..

2005-11-18T07:44:00.000+14:00

BAO'S COMING BACK THIS SUN!!!!!!!!

wheeeeee....can't wait to see my babe!!missing her loads..but i tink she's gona clobber me when she sees me coz i still owe her not one but TWO letters..oppss!!!sorry babe!!seeing me will make up for everything rite??

cant wait cant wait cant wait to see my darling bao!!!!yeah!!!!!!!=)=)=)=)=)=)=)

2005-11-17T06:57:00.000+14:00

i don't seem to know you anymore..
you have become so superficial..
the more i try to talk to you..
the further away u seem to be..
you take forever to reply..
or either that you're never there..
wat happen to all the crap abt staying near me
so it's easier to meet now..
we hardly meet up anymore..
we hardly even communicate..
i duno..
maybe it's me..
i juz cant seem to reach u anymore..
you are no longer to same person i use to know..
but you will always be the person i love and cherish..

2005-11-15T04:14:00.000+14:00

thanx for all ur concern...hazel,becks and swannie..i'm fine..juz needed to get all that stuff outa my chest..but somehow the one that i want to read tat entry doesnt seem to read it..oh well..

i'm fine now..really..

research methods projects,,OTTP project, communications projects, clinical diaries, anat prac test,physio test,research methods test..grr..all these are killing my tiny little brain and it's cells..

swan's ending her exams soon and i'll be starting early dec..that's when becks end too..grr...why muz they poly life be so different..i cant seem to meet up with my babes!!!oh well..there's still the 2 pathetic break weeks before and during christmas..but then i'll be having test again after the hols..oh well..who cares...i'm so going to go out with my babes!!bird park outing, wala-ing,pigging out with my feathered babes..ktv-ing,sleep overs,christmas party with my bimbo darlings..wohoo!!can't wait!!=)=)

ok..off to study...my poor little brain...

2005-11-13T06:58:00.000+14:00

i tink i'm pms-ing..been very emotional lately..and im sure hazel can vouch for that..rite babe??haha...this week has been very extreme for me..super duper happy one moment and the next i'll be damn disappointed and sad..sigh..but thanx hazel darling for being there for me!=)love you babe!:):):):):)

::i feel the distance between you and me getting wider
i dun seem to truly understand you the way i use to anymore
msgs get lesser each day
the phonecalls are even fewer
i dun noe whats going on in your life
im afraid to call coz im afraid i'll catch u at the wrong time
i know you'll drop everything to talk to me
but i dont want you to
you seem to have time for everyone else except me
it's juz so hard to ask u out to meet up
but it seem so easy for u to meet ur other friends
you say you talk to loads of people on msn
but i dun even get to talk to u much on msn
and i cant seem to tell you coz i dun wana add on to your stress
and i dun wan history to repeat itself again
i made a mistake last time by telling you
now,i'm juz gona swallow everything and keep my mouth shut
i hope time will heal
maybe your busy with exams,busy with life and stuff
i'll try to understand and leave it as it is
hopefully everything will turn out fine..
i dun wana see this friendship go down the drain..
coz i love and treasure you alot::

i know i seem petty and selfish...but i seriously dun care about how pple see me coz this is my space and i juz wana bitch about how i feel..

i really dun wana see our years of friendship just go to waste like that..i know its tough managing ur school life, friends, family..and it doesnt help that we're on such a different path in life..but i really hope our friendship can withstand the test of all these..deep down i noe it will..but it takes two hands to clap..

im not blaming you for anything..i know it's partly my fault too..i kinda tk for granted that you'll just call me when u need to and i dun have to always call you..and i noe time changes the fact that you're not the first person i run to when i have problems anymore..its not that i dun trust u or i dun wan ur advice or anything..but somehow it's just that u dun really noe the whole situation im in and its very hard to explain everything from the beginning juz to say the problem..and it seems whenever i call,you're busy..seriously,i'm not blaming you k?this is just how i perceive from my point of view..

anyway..i'm tired..nitez reality..hello dream..

2005-11-07T17:02:00.000+14:00

i love my daddy and mummy!!!=)

my random thought:
i need to start mugging..
i need to finish my projects asap..
i'm starting to get stressed out abt my exams and test..
it's killing me..
it's starting when all my babes are ending..wth..
when they're having exams,i'm free..
when i'm having exams,they're free...grrrr..
i cant wait for christmas..
i love christmas..
i love the spirit of christmas..
i love the story of christmas..
i miss my bimbos..
i feel we're drifting apart..
i hate exams and tests coz it brings us further apart..
babes,lets go out after all the stupid exams are ended k?
i miss my feather babes..
i cant wait for bao to be back!!whee!!!!=)
i need a hair cut but i wana keep long hair..

hmm..it's really random..juz typed watever came to my mind..

2005-11-07T05:40:00.000+14:00

i can't stand it..

whenever i'm pissed, i seem to have so much pent up frustrations inside me..but when i log in to blogger..i juz dun seem to be able to write it down..

anyway, today has been the extreme of days...

it was perfect in the wee hours of the morning..coz i received ur call!!!*wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee*..it juz totally made my day..thanx for always making me smile..for always being there for me..=)

church was great..ever since i came to galilee..i look forward to service every week..i love being there..it feels so homely and i love it here..=)

but my whole day took a different light at night..when i was talking to hazel on the phone..eveything started to come out..i felt my "hatred"(ok..hazel says i shld say dislike instead..)for HER start to explode..i was so pissed off with HER..not hazel la..haha..grrr..oh wel..shant spoilt the rest of my day talking abt HER...

oh well..it's 1221h now..yusheng shld be at the airport by now..so he wun be reading this post..but thanx for listening to me that day and for all the advice k?you really made me see things from another point of view and i really appreciate it..=)and u better NOT spills the beans..coz i'll seriously kill you if you do!!haha..kidding...yupyup..have a safe trip to brunei and pls tk care!=)

2005-10-31T17:36:00.000+14:00

here's for those who haven seen my NYP OT class...we all wore our jc uni to celebrate national day..haha..wat a lame joke...

my PBL's FINALLY OVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!yippeee!!!but now i'm so consumed with lethargy and tiredness...my eyes can barely open...

went shopping with mummy and daddy after school..had to shop for my black shoe for clinicals..finally bought the URS one..and it was on discount..its really comfy..so i like it!!=)then daddy bought his timberland shoes..and me and mummy bought similar plain tops but different colour..and of course different size..haha..then we went to killney road to eat kaya toast!!yummy yummy..=)i love spending time with my parents..they're crazy people and they made me laugh like shit till i spit out all my bread...haha...thank god no one saw that sight..haha..

anyway..i'm going to catch up on my long long long long lost sleep..can finally sleep in peace now that pbl's over..

nite nite everyone!!

zzzzzzzzzzzzz

2005-10-31T03:04:00.000+14:00

my bimbos and i trigger happy!!!=)=)miss the times spent!!

tho we have all gone our seperate ways..to different parts of the earth..different parts of singapore..literally..but i know our hearts are joined as one..
tho we dun always call or talk very often..we know we are all just a call away and we'll be there when one of us needs help..
tho we have our own lifes to lead, we know we'll be besties forever and we will grow old together..

missing you loads babes!!

anyway..i'm almost done with my PBL project..like finally..been sleeping at like 3plus 4 eveyday..and i'm always stuck in front of the com..doing research and the project..it's really killing my little brain..it better soon if not i'll break down..cant wait for tom to end..it means the END of my PBL and the start of the public hol!!wohoo...finally a break to reward myself..yipeee!!!!

2005-10-29T08:53:00.000+14:00

my lesbian partner!!!at her fave place..wala wala..haha..rite hazel?? although you're always making fun of me and making me go crazy..i still love you!!=)

i have no time to blog people..so i'll just upload pictures every now and then for ur viewing pleasure!!=)

2005-10-28T06:28:00.000+14:00

i distorted the face of the lao ah pek..haha..=)

2005-10-25T15:45:00.000+14:00

school's really draining me..watever energy i stored since the hols has been used up..im seriously just running on my leftovers and adrenaline..i'm seriously very tired..projects,tutorials,revisions..gosh..it's really slowly sapping all my energy..all i do now when i get home is sit in front of the com and research..i dun even have time for myself or time to go thru what the lecturers did for that day..i'm seriously lagging behind in my work..hopefully by this mon,after my PBL project's done i can sit down and sort my work and study..

i haven got the time to meet up with people ever since school started..i feel my social life getting duller and duller..it just revolves ard school,church and family..it's quite depressing..anyway,i'm in a depressing mood so everything seems depressing to me..

on the way home today,as the bus passed cj..it brought back lotsa memories..come to think of it..i seriously do miss the wonderful and amazing people of t25..i remembered telling myself that i wun bond with my class coz when i step into class the first day, there were already so many cliches..and of course i was stuck with clarissa..haha..thank God for bao and swannie who later saved my life..haha..=)my feathered frenz brought the most joy in my jc days and i cant wait for 20th nov where we'll be reunited again!!=)let's go visit the bird park tog k??haha..=)back to the topic..somehow or rather we bonded really well in the end..and i noe that the bunch of frenz that i made there are keepers for life..=)

my cj class of t25'03-04!!!=)

2005-10-25T05:43:00.000+14:00

i miss my darling swannie!!=)study hard and we play hard after ur exams k?counting down to that day!=)*hugzzzzzzzzzz*

i miss my josie baby!!i miss st. nicks..a place filled with wonderful memories that will last a lifetime..=)

my darling bimbos that will be in heart for eternity!=)your make up the most of the wonderful memories that will last me till the end of time..i love you babes!=)

2005-10-23T08:26:00.000+14:00

i'm so @#%$ pissed!!seriously, i've had enough of waiting for people..like wat i always tell my bimbos,i tink if u add up all the time i spent waiting for them,it's gona be one year..

i mean sometimes i can understand if ur suddenly held up or wat so u haf to be late..but sometimes it juz really pisses me off it you're perpectually late..like come on la..your bloodly hell wasting other people's time and u juz dun seem to respect the person..i mean it's ok it's once,twice or even a few times or an occasional thing but it really gets on my nerves and it pisses me off like !@#$% if you are always late..give me a break la..i really hate waiting for people..5-10 min is fine but if your like always 20min late..wat the hell..you really pissed me off la..

anyway,i've seriously had it!!i've had enough!!!!!!!!!!damn it..it's really irritaing..i really cant stand it anymore..i've had it!!!

i'm not talking abt anyone in particular but today's a very bad day for me..so pls try to understand..those who noe me will noe that my anger will not last long so pls dun talk abt it when u see me..i juz wana vent my anger..coz this issue has been bugging me and i seriously juz wana get it off my chest..

2005-10-23T08:01:00.000+14:00

me and my darling bao!!!=)thanx for the prezzie bao!!i love it!and it's purple too..hehe..thanx darling..

2005-10-21T01:12:00.000+14:00

my blogger doesn seem to like me... and i dun like it either..i cant seem to upload all the pics and i cant caption them either..bleah!!anyway,i added the pic below to let my darlings know that i missed them tremendously and i love them!!=)

school's started since mon and i'm drowning in the amount of projects and assignments to be completed..we were already slapped into reality on the first day of school when all the lecturers bombarded us with tests and project dates..gosh!!wat a way to start sem 2..

dinner time..update more later..

2005-10-20T06:09:00.000+14:00

2005-10-20T04:27:00.000+14:00

i miss my darlings truckloads and truckloads!!!

2005-10-13T05:33:00.000+14:00

Sometimes the best and the most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen, cannot be touched but can be felt in the innermost depths of the heart*

2005-10-07T05:52:00.000+14:00

photos uploaded..

my 19th Birthday(new album!)

i had a wonderful birthday yest..juz thinking about it makes me realize how blessed and loved i am..

i juz wana say a big thank you and i love you to the following people..(not in order of importance or watsoever)
wei,becks,jose,shee,thanya,swannie,hazel,ben,yusheng,jiahui,dia,xianrui,daniel
eileen,esther,stacey,joce,twins, jason,samuel..and of course my wonderful family..

that's all i ever need..they made my special day extra special juz by being in my life..

i was surprised by ben and swannie yest..i was sleeping like a pig in the afternoon when swan called asking me to meet her downstairs..so i went down still feeling quite groggy..and then i saw ben with her..they came specially to bring my presents..gosh!!i feel so love..they made the extra effort to travel all the way to my house to pass me and my present..they hang around my house..took photos and juz talk about anything and everything..i was really touched that i almost cried..i really din expect them to do it for me..but i held back my tears..thanx swannie and ben!!=)

headed to mandarin triple 3 to eat dinner with my family and eileen..had a yummilious buffet..gosh..they had french cuisine and the spread was wonderful..had so many oysters and crayfish..yummy..and the fondue and chocolates was *speechless*..the french muz really love chocolates and they had so many different kinds of chocolates..yummy..i love my family!!=)

no amount of words can really express how special i felt yesterday..ur every deed and action really made me feel so blessed and loved and im really thankful to everyone who remembered and made the day so special..=)

2005-10-04T06:11:00.000+14:00

it's been exactly one year ago..but looking back at the book that my wonderful classmates in t25 put for me last year for my birthday seriously brought tears to my eyes..especially bao's page..where she beautifully captured all our wonderful cjc memories in one page..juz looking at the drawings and all the silly stuff we did together seriously made me miss everyone..all the lovely messages that my dears left for me made me think of the past and made me miss them..i miss the times we played,studied,dance,had mass-pe,played cards,pon school,ran away from bro paul,awang,karen ho and micky,gossip abt people,talk and laugh so loudly during chua beebah's lecture(rem the BIG-MOUTH girl??)..oh gosh..it was so embarassing..i really miss those days..though it was just a short period of 2years,but our friendship really blossomed into one that no matter how far away we are from each other,we know that we will always love and be there for each other...swannie,bao..we will always remain as the best feathered friends yes??bao,i noe u may not be physically with us,we will always be here for u and we noe that u'll be there for us too rite??i love you my swannie and bao!=)

read jose's blog quite a while back and i felt tears when i read these..
(ripped it off jose's blog)
i miss four loyalty.
i miss two wisdom.
me and steph were like reminiscing the whole time.
like how miss quek will call all of us for homework.l
ike how steph got ONE for relative velocity. HAHA :)
like how wei dropped her ice cream before she touched it.
like how we would ask thanya or wei to book people.
like how we would stop at every mirror :)
like how we would update our love lives every monday's assembly.
like how we would bully wei and thanya to put back the bowls.
like how slow steph and becks ate.
like how excited we were when it comes to fried food day.
like how bimbotic we were.like how we stole mirror from the toilet and other classes.
like how we love taking photos in the toilet.
like how the balcony became our neo print stand.
like how we would talk about bumping into our eyecandies.
like how we were there for each other always even till now :)

gosh..how i miss my bimbos..was looking thru the photos that the lazy bum jose finally uploaded..and i felt this aching sour feeling in my heart..i noe it's coz i miss them..i miss the days when i can spend 5 days a week with them..studying together,playing together,bitching together,bimbo-ing together and juz simply being there for each other..bimbos,i love you!!each and everyone of u from the bottom of my heart..:)

something's wrong with me today..i seem to be feeling so nostalgic about everything..

~i'm going to live each moment and treasure every minute that God gives me..i'm not gona let it slip by my fingers like how i let the past slip by me without treasuring them..

2005-10-03T19:01:00.000+14:00

FRI
tanning with hazel..bought it wasnt really sunny so i din get much darker..but i tink it was super high tide so the waves kept splashing down on us and driving us nearer to the shore..a funny sight..two crazy gurls screaming when the waves swept us in..felt really good talking to her on the beach..juz lying down on the sand,waves splashing on us and juz talking about anything..=)

went for the "everlasting regret" movie premier with becks at night..or was it "everlasting love" becks??haha..it was a really tragic show..everyone kept dying one after another..oh..but it felt good..being in the midst of stars..wohoo..haha..and SAMMI CHENG'S SO HOTTT!!!..gosh..she's so pretty in real person..she's so pretty and elegant and class..*drools*..and i miss becks!!she's still as chor lor as ever..the way she walks in her heels..gosh!!somethings can never change..haha..but i still love you becks!!=)

SAT
day was spent with my darling swannie..she drove to suntec..we caught The Corpse Bride..ohh..i like the show..haha..it was not to bad and quite funny at some parts too..go catch it!!shopped ard a bit..oh..and there's a humongous guardian now at suntec...it took the place of espirit..and even fann wong came to grace the opening ceremony..wow!!she looks pretty..haha..then headed to town..we were both hoping to buy a pair of havianas(sp??)but sigh..the colour that swan wanted din have her size and i thot the one that i wanted was a bit too ex..30 plus bucks for a pair of slippers??no way man..then i tink coz of the crystal jade lunch ,my stomach did its thing again and decided to turn upside down..puked like crazy and before going home,i puked again and this time puke even came out from my nose..yucks!!the feeling sucks man..i tink i was sufferng from indigestion..sorry swannie for making u worry!!i'm fine now..=)

pics uploaded under gurls' outing from no. 55onwards.

SUN
day spent in church as usual..then headed to mama's house for dinner and all my uncles and aunties celebrated my bday for me!!gosh!!it was a surprise thingy..they made me go upstairs to try on the clothes they bought for me..then somehow i can hear my little cousin screaming from downstairs,"quick!! jiejie's coming down already..faster!!"but somehow i din really suspect anything and when i came down all the lights were off then all of them came out from no where with the lighted bday cake and started singing me the bday song!!gosh!!i was so touch..i mean we do this for everybody's bday but mine was so special..the rest of the relatives juz had a cake and presents but mine was a surprise..haha..i felt so love and touch..=)

The Power of Your Love
Lord i come to You
let my heart be changed,renewed
Flowing from the grace
that i've found in You
and Lord i've come to know
the weaknesses i see in me
will be stipped away
by the power of your love

hold me close
let Your love surround me
bring me near
draw me to Your side
and as i wait
i'll rise up like the eagle
and i will soar with You
Your spirit leads me on
in the power of Your love

Lord unveil my eyes
let me see You face to face
the knowledge of Your love
as You live in me
Lord renew my mind
as Your will unfolds in my life
in living everyday
in the power of Your love

2005-09-30T01:30:00.000+14:00

i'm missing my darling bimbos loads and truckloads..no one can ever be their substitute and no one can ever give me the same kind of joy that they bring me when im with them..

darling bimbos..each and everyone of u are greatly missed and loved by me..*hugzzzzzzz*

2005-09-25T04:20:00.000+14:00

photos uploaded..under CJC..from no. 21 onwards..

THURSDAY
had my driving test in the morning and i passes with 14 point!!wohoo!!!:):):):):):):)finally..thank God..was suppose to meet hazel to go tanning..but mr sun was not happy and started raining cats and dogs..so our planned was postphone..headed to town to develope my hk photos,family and some of the bimbos shots..a whopping total of 267 photos and it cost me $80 bucks!!!anyway,was suppose to meet charlene and the rest but was feeling a lil under the weather so i headed home first..at night,i drove eileen home..with kor in the front and my parents at the bag..phew..stressful..thank God i got everyone home safe and in one piece..

FRIDAY
stayed at home..coz i was feeling a lil oozyy..picked my dad up from work and then send mysefl to give tuition..nothing much..

SATURDAY
fetched my parents to the market and had breakfast with them..then went home and got changed and swannie came over..then she drove to meet ben and ys at marina square..had lotsa fun with them..shant bother explaining every single detail but the bottom line was i had an exciting day with them..hopping from cafes and cafes and from one movies theatre to another..haha..only they will understanding what i'm talking abt..haha..

SUNDAY
church..i tink mummy's getting worried that i dun have a bf coz she kept asking me who i'm interested in from galilee so she'll help me size up the person and see if he's suitable..gosh!!mummy!!=)

still in the midst of uploading all my bimbo photos..so jose,becks be patient..i'll be done latest by tue night okie??=)

*i miss jose*
*i miss becks
*i miss wei*
*i miss shee*
*i miss thanya*
*i miss jun*

2005-09-19T04:37:00.000+14:00

jose's back..and she's leaving again..i haven spend enuf time with her yet..this sucks!!when she's back longer,i'm having school,when she's back for a few days,i'm having hols..grrr...im so gonna miss my babe!!!but i really treasure the times the bimbos spent together..after leaving st nicks,looking back makes me treasure the times spent with frenz more..especially my darlings..

going back to st nicks today really brought back lots and lots of fond memories..its the place where i have the best and fondest memories..the monday morning assembly where i'll go gaga over a certain someone..the toilet breaks,the neo-print mirror,miss quek's "seperate ur tables,if not i'll not give ur the question paper!"..all the shit we go thru together..the quarrels,the fun and the joy we been thru..sec 3-4 loyalty were truly the best years of my life!!

hols are finishing soon..i beta make full use of it man..come on peeps,date me out!!im so freaking bored..

i've got so much to type but i dun even noe how to start..oh well..nothing worth talking abt anyway..

2005-09-17T22:22:00.000+14:00

2005-09-15T06:32:00.000+14:00

i'm getting quite tired of blogging..seriously thinking of closing this blog down..im getting tired of having to write out my life and what i do and what i tink for the whole world to see..i mean if i really wan you to know,i'll tell you..why muz i set up a site for people to openly and freely view my personal..even if its password locked,so what??

sigh..i duno whats with all the pent up emotions..i juz feel tired i guess..physically and mentally..i have lots of stuff going in my head but i juz cant seem to pinpoint the actually problem..

i guess i juz need sleep..

2005-09-13T05:12:00.000+14:00

i'm trying my best to upload the photos..juz that there are so many so i'll do it in batches k??as in like day by day thingy..

and i'm freaking lazy to blog abt my trip..xian..it's so eventful that it's quite hard to type it out here..i'll do a verbal one when i see ur k??it's much easier for me and for ur to understand also..anyway,juz in summary,i did enjoy myself and i bought stuff for everyone k??=)

yup..juz came back from my class chalet..i left one night early coz im having driving tom..went pulau ubin on the second day and we cycled like crazy and i haven exercise since like aug last year..ever since the last day of cjc's famous SHIT(super high intensive training)PE..yep..it was that long ago..so anyway,we cycled uphill,downhill,across humongous puddles of muddy and disgusting water..treaded thru thick grasses and puddles of mud and muddy water and when we finally reached the quarry,it was so hot but we were so hungry so we gobbled our lunch..and we were so afraid that the turtles might crawl up the rocks to steal our food..ahah..then we cycled back to taste the deliciously refreshing cool coconut juice..and all the way up there i learnt to treausre our water..haha..

so now,u can imagine how my freaking tighs and legs hurt..it's hurting like crazy man..i need a massage...haha..ok..i'm going to eat my icecream now..craving for it since yesterday..

ok..blog more soon!!=)tata

2005-09-12T07:00:00.000+14:00

ok..i'm back from hongkong..have so much to update everyone but i'm so freaking tired now..

i'm dedicating this whole post to my darling wei..

darling,im sorry if i disappointed you abt what i said k??u noe i din mean it..and im really glad we cleared things up..i'm sorry if i added on to ur burden k??no matter wat i'll always be here for you yes??i noe we hardly spend time together anymore but u noe i'm always here for you and i'm juz a phone call away k??and after i pass my driving..gosh!then it'll be so easy for me to drive down to ur school then we'll meet up more often k??=)so darling,pls tk care of urself k??study hard okie??anyting,u noe i'll always be here for u..so juz call ok??i love you darling!!=)

anyway people,i'll upload the photos of hongkong soon k??i missing everyone!!let's meet up!!!!!

blog on tue..off to my OT class chalet tom..grr...no sleep again..time to catch up on my beauty sleep..nite..

2005-09-04T03:39:00.000+14:00

ok..did some colour quiz thingy..and here are the results..

::You want to be regarded as an exiting and interesting personality able to persuade others to comply with your beliefs and ideas. You are charming and able to influence other people who come into your sphere of influence. You like mental stimulation and you are the sort of person who is prepared to 'try anything once'. Your confidence is so much so that others are often swept away by your enthusiasm.

Most people are conditioned by their environment and you are no exception. You are an extremely emotional person - so much so that 'the wrong word' can lead you to tears. You feel other people's pain. You feel the need of sympathetic relationships and a pleasant work environment in order to develop and grow. You are an impulsive, loving individual with a great deal of inherent feeling.

You lack confidence and that is a great pity because deep down you are indeed a warm caring person. This lack of confidence is making you wary of being drawn into any open discussion or conflict and so you feel as if you should let matters lie and leave well alone. But there may be a pleasant surprise in store for you. You are beginning to grow and very soon - sooner than you believed possible - this warm loving new you will be available for all to see and to appreciate.

You are an emotional, sincere and impressionable individual experiencing frustration and unnecessary stress. You vehemently resist any form of pressure from outside sources, insisting on your independence as an individual. You want to be a decision maker - to make up your own mind without interference. You wish to be able to draw your own conclusions and arrive at your own decisions. You detest uniformity and mediocrity as you want to be regarded as one who gives authoritative opinions. Your favourite expression could well be that 'I may not always be right but I am never wrong'. You're a perfectionist and even though you may feel that the other person's point of view may be right, you find it extremely difficult to admit that you could be wrong.

You are greatly impressed by individuality and have interest in people who have outstanding qualities. You try to imitate those people that you admire and their characteristics, hoping that you will be able to display similar qualities in your own personality.::

ok..that's quite true..or rather it's really true it's kinda scary..i usually dun believe in this kinda test but it's really quite true..

anyway,i've written my reply letter to bao but i haven got the time to post it yet..will go to the SAM machine tom and get my stamps..so i can post it on mon..so sorry bao for the super late reply k??hehe..anyway, i coloured it and decorated it..hehe..juz hope u dun have a headache reading it..=)

ok..i tink this will be my last post before i leave for hk..dun worry,i'll try to get everyone something k??=)anyway i'll miss everyone...

to my darling wei..i hope watever i say wun affect u k??coz i juz wanted u to noe how i feel but dun worry..watever it is i'll always be here for u k??i noe we cant spend the same amount of time together like how we use to or talk on the phone as much as we do last time but i juz want u to know that you'll always be my bestie and i'll always be supporting you okie??thanx for always being there for me and for hearing me complain all my crap and giving me all the wake up calls when it comes to relationship stuff..i love you gurlie and no one can ever take your place in my heart!!love you darling!=)*hugzzzzzzzzzzz*

to my darling bimbos...tho we seldom meet up and hangout like we use to but i noe that we're only juz seperated by juz a call or msg..coz i noe all of you will be there for me when i need someone..all the bimbos have and will always have a special place in my heart and we'll always be besties for life and we will grow old together and be the godmothers of our children k?i love you all!=)

to my dearie feather babes...swannie and bao..i miss the two years we spent together in t25..the crazy shit we use to do..making all the stupid jokes..drawing on each others books..bao,i still have the maths notes that you drew a whole freaking page of I LOVE YAM!!STUFF ME WITH YAM!!...remember that??haha..the flammingo with the one leg kicking crap??our mad rush to the yong tau fu stall?running away from karen tan and mickie and awang??how we'd remember which day karen tan;s havning her lesson at what time and where so we'll avoid that area??haha..all the monchichi(sp?)jokes..our cheerleading practices??man..i miss those jc days..life in cj was enjoyable coz of the two of your..if not i'll die of boredom miserable there..haha..i love you gurlies alot!!=)*hugzzzzzzzzzzzzzz*haha..

2005-08-31T06:10:00.000+14:00

ok..i'm down..great..sick with the badly infected throat and the nose that doesnt seem to stop running..grrr..i hate being sick..and somemore it's the hols!!!i wana enjoy properly..

anyway,headed down to smu to meet darling becks..was really late..sorry darling..was really tired so din hear my alarm clock..hehe..anyway,i was such a booboo head..i tried to follow becks's directions to smu from city hall and i got lost..ok..it's either im lousy or her directions pretty bad..i guess it's the latter..haha..anyway,went to raffles city taxi stand and cabbed down..

ME: uncle,smu please

TAXI UNCLE: huh??smu is juz nearby only right?

ME: i dun study there mah..so i duno the route..anyway,uncle can u faster start driving..i'm late..

TAXI UNCLE: okok..anyway u'll reach in 5 min..

great..and smu was juz like less than 1km away and the fare was $2.40!!the meter din even jump la..stupid me..haha..shopped ard and met noah..who helped becks get her shoes and bag for the superstar finals tom..its some red carpet thing and that gurl cant even walk properly in the heels..haha..anyway the jwest shoes that she ultimately bought was damn nice!!it pretty!!haha..but its a tad too ex for me..but it's sweet and it's pretty..haha..then headed to bugis village and walked more..nothing seems to interest me there..it's so far easty..haha..ate at bugis cafe which was like super cheap!!ate abit of the cookie which was quite nice..and their fish and chips set meal,which includes soup and drinks only cost 6.95bucks!!how goods that..haha..anyway, I LOVE YOU BECKS!!even thought you're always poking me, whistle at me as if i'm your dog,make fun of me..i still love you darling!!hehe..=)dun be soft k??be strong and be independent!!=)dun be like me k?i'll always be here for you if u need anything k??i'm juz a call away yupz?when i get my license,i'll drive and be at ur doorstep if u need me k??i love you dearie!=)

anyway,becks and noah left so i waited alone for ben..had dinner at fish and co..ate my usual fish and chips but gosh..bcoz of my sickening nose, i couldn't smell anything la..wat a waste..and thanx ben for sending me home altho u were really tired and still have to go back to camp tom..thanx gongong!=)

okok..shall go sleep early so i'll recover quickly and hopefully get well before i go hk..i tink i'll get the mango cardigan soon..becks's says its nice too and ok..i'll get it..i cant stop thinking of it..haha..

nitez!