Saturday, October 02, 2004
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sigh..juz read all the tags that my bimbos left me..so sweet..oh man..i realize how much i've neglected them all these while..dearies,thanx all always being by my side k?guess u really will never treasure ur love ones till they're gone..but i'll make sure that wun happen to me k?coz i really really really treasure u all soooooo much!!i love u gurlies!!you're the bestest bunch of girlfriends in the world!*hugz*
Fri:
ended sch at 1230 but had stupid phy mock prac at3pm so the gurlies in my class(me,bao,swan,esther,hanyi and kristie)headed down town..went to thread my eyebrows..hehe..cant really tell the diff la but i'm happy coz they're like much neater now..hehe..then we headed to olio dome and wheelock and ate lots of stuff..not really we la..maybe juz me..haha..we ordered apple pie,tiramisu and chessecake..oh man..it was sooo good..gona go there to eat again man..this time i really wana eat their chocolate cake,the description on the menu sounds super tempting..then we ordered the iced chocolate with gelato drink..it was good too..then we scooted back to school and did the prac..if only this was the prelim prac,it was so much easier and we finished like way before the expected time..haha..
juz finished tuition..feeling a little feverish...duno why..alot of people in my class are falling sick..think i muz have gotten the bug from them..arrrggghh...and my ear hurts like crazy..duno la..kor said it's a little infected and swollen inside but told me to observe and see how..i've slept for 2 hrs but i'm still feeling so tired and weak..tink i shall go sleep somemore before going for yf..hopefully kor can fetch me..tink i mite juz faint on the way there if i go myself..i hate being sick!!
the princess rambled on
|Saturday, October 02, 2004|
Friday, October 01, 2004
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sigh..decided to write my thoughts all down before i forget them..kor was juz telling us what happen in the hospital today..that's what he always does..but somehow what he said today really struck me..i mean he was saying that this 43yr old lady was found with advanced stage cancer..she thought it was juz a benign one in the beginning and she felt she was still strong and normal but after some stomach pains the doc confirm that it was cancer and even an op will not save her life..she was going to die!i mean like she was still so young..and kor said that she looked absolutely normal prob juz on the thin side but she looked juz like anyone of us..how can this be?it suddenly dawned upon me that God can juz take anyone away from u when He deems fit..and i always tk for granted the people around me thinking that they'll be by my side forever..as i looked at my parents i almost cried..i feel like a owe them more than my life...i can never repay what i owe to them in this lifetime..they've sacrificed so much juz for me and i've always taken them for granted and failed them time and again..
i shall strive to be a good daughter to make them happy and do my part as a filial daughter..i've always told myself to find a guy who loves his famiy alot and treats them with respect and love and all those stuff but because of him,i told myself maybe that's not so impt after all..i've vowed that i'll only marry the guy if he truly treats his family well and loves them..coz if that's how the guy treats his family then that's how he'll treat you rite?
the princess rambled on
|Friday, October 01, 2004|
Thursday, September 30, 2004
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thank you Jesus for putting friends into my life
for bringing them to me when i needed them to most
most importantly,thank you for being by my side all these while
my love for u has grown so dim and faint all these years
but you have never once given up loving me
your love's so pure and unconditional
your promises are so true and real
all the contrast with what the world is
Lord,i pray you'll take me home now
to be by your side where there are no lies and deceit
no pretences and broken promises
you are the only one who truly understand the struggle and the pain that i'm going thru now
Lord,juz take me home to where you are
i really feel like giving up
the pain's so terrible that i cant take it
no amount of earthly comfort can ease my broken heart
Lord,i know this is what you want from me
this is the best solution and the life that you want me to lead
so Lord, i pray that you'll grant me the strength,grace and patience to finish my race
to run my race to meet you at the end
Lord,why muz things turn out this way?
why muz people break all their promises?
why muz they lie to me?
How can anyone be so irresponsible for what they said?
Lord, grant me the grace and strength to forget everything,
grant me the power to be able to love again for i've given up on love
Lord, i juz pray that you'll always be near me,to guide and to direct me
to love and to carry me through this life's journey..
in Jesus name i pray
Amen..
the princess rambled on
|Thursday, September 30, 2004|
Wednesday, September 29, 2004
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this is seriously a fucked up world..i cant believe im actually saying all these vulgaritites but you certainly haf pushed me to the limit..i'm juz feeling so vexed and frustrated..ur seriously the cause of all my sufferings and watever fucked up feelings i have now..i seriously hate u to the core..i've never hated anyone with such hatred before..not even x___ h__..u tink ur the only one who is enjoying life..let me tell u that i've the world's most wonderful bunch of frenz to confide to,the world's most loving family to pour out my feelings to(or rather it's juz my bro whom i tell my probs to),and u dun!ur juz alone in ur fucked up world where everything's so faked and everything's living on pretences..ur juz a poor lonely soul looking for material and temporal comfort..at least i've supportive frenz who truly love and care for me..i'm sorry for u..
if u got together with me to ruin my life..i congratulate u..u've certainly done a good job and u should be awarded the Nobel Prize of the year for formulating a way to ruin the lifes of people..but i'm sorry..u're juz a fucked up person who will tarnish the names of all nobel prize winners..
FUCK YOU!!JUZ GET THE HELL OUT OF MY FUCKING LIFE!!FUCK OFF!!!!
the princess rambled on
|Wednesday, September 29, 2004|
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I HATE YOU!!!I SERIOUSLY HATE !!!JUZ GET OUT OF MY LIFE!!DISAPPEAR!VANISH!JUZ GET OUT!!I DUN EVER WANNA SEE U EVER AGAIN!!JUZ GET OUT OF MY SIGHT!!YOU'RE SUCH A PAIN..HAVEN U CAUSED ME ENOUGH PAIN??JUZ STOP AND JUZ FUCK OFF!!JUZ GET OUT OF MY LIFE!!JUZ GO AWAY!!I HATE YOU!!YOU'VE TAKEN EVERYTHING AWAY FROM ME!!DUN YOU SEE WHAT U'VE DONE TO ME??I JUZ HATE YOU!!YOU'RE A LIAR!!YOU'RE FULL OF LIES AND DECEIT..ALL THE PROMISES THAT U MADE TO ME!!I HATE YOU!!I JUZ HATE YOU!!JUZ GO AWAY...I CANT TAKE IT ANYMORE!!JUZ GET A LIFE AND FUCK OFF!!
I HATE YOU!I HATE YOU!!I HATE YOU!!I HATE YOU!I HATE YOU!I HATE YOU!I HATE YOU!I HATE YOU!I HATE YOU!
the princess rambled on
|Wednesday, September 29, 2004|
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I'M GOING FOR PROM!!
hehe..duno if i shld feel happy or wat..was quite hesistant on going..but in the end..i'm going..it's held at Pan Pacific again..arrggghh...it's sure gona bring back memories of my sec 4 grad..with my class(4L)..the bimobs...the truth or dare game on the steps of city hall mrt..the spilt milk..haha..all the fond times..but i've sorta decided wat to wear already..i'm gonna wear a black tube with a glittery,dark red sari-like skirt..but not the long long kind..the assymetric kind which is 3/4 length..and i'm gona cut my hair SHORT and spike it up..then i'm also gona buy lots of indian bangles to wear..haha..so excited..it's all under 50bucks i tink..i hope la..
thanx chris for the advance prezzie..she bought me this maroon mango top for my bday..so sweet..thanx dearie!and that bao and swan went to buy my prezzie today..
me: ey bao,why are u on this side of the bus-stop?
bao: hehe..
me: why?
bao: we're gona buy ur bday prezzie!
i almost drop dead..haha..so hilarious..she was like so happily telling me and so straight forward somemore..haha..love those two gurlies to bits!haha..
hey, yeah Hush, just stop
There's nothing you can do or say,
baby I've had enough
I'm not your property as from today,
baby You might think that I won't make it on my own
But now I'm
Chorus:
Stronger than yesterday
Now it's nothing but my way
My lonliness ain't killing me no more
I'm stronger Than I ever thought that I could be,
babyI used to go with the flow
Didn't really care 'bout me
You might think that I can't take it, but you're wrong
Cause now I'm
CHORUS:
Stronger than yesterday
Now it's nothing but my way
My lonliness ain't killing me no more
I'm stronger
Come on, nowOh, yeah
Here I go, on my own
I don't need nobody, better off alone
Here I go, on my own nowI don't need nobody, not anybody
Here I go, alright, here I go
Repeat
CHORUS:
Stronger than yesterday
Now it's nothing but my way
My lonliness ain't killing me no more
I'm stronger
the princess rambled on
|Wednesday, September 29, 2004|
Tuesday, September 28, 2004
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thanx wei for what u've done..thanx for giving me a slap on my face..thanx for waking me up..i duno what i'll do without u..
she was so overwhelmed with stupidity that she cant help cursing herself..
she felt like she was the biggest fool on earth
giving her heart to someone who doesn even care a damn bit about her
someone who doesn even wana listen to her problems
someone who lies and betrays her
she was really blind but now she noes
like what her best friend said
she'll only give what's left of her heart to the one who really loves her like she does
to the one who's really meant for her..
thanx everyone for listening..thanx becks,jose,shee,chris,esther,bao,swan,daniel and yusheng..thanx for lessening my burden even though ur dun really noe whats going on..but thanx for enlightening me and for waking me up..
STEPH,WAKE UP!!!BE STRONG AND MOVE ON!!
the princess rambled on
|Tuesday, September 28, 2004|
Monday, September 27, 2004
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yeah!no school today..so i'm juz gona stay home and slack..maybe i'll go play badminton with my claz later at 2pm..will see coz it's all the way at tanjong pagar CC..where is dat??hehe..will see..
updates on the weekend:
SAT:
met wei at suntec city..went to see the so-called BIG shoe sale they had at the convention hall..was such a disappointment..they had so many pairs but all the ahma-ish kind..then went next door to see the clothes one..they had all the tommy and abercrombie stuff but all like erm...duno how to describe..but it was such a disappointment..we felt hungry so we went to eat at the thai resaurant..called RENthai..quite nice ambience..quiet and cosy..food's not bad too...then we headed down town to do more shopping..i bought a nice white top from bodynits..its quite nice and simple..then we shopped around to find wei's top but that gurl's so fussy..so we headed to heeren annex..saw a damn nice skirt but it was a tad too short even for my liking..haha..and i dun haf that nice legs to show off...haha..so i bought a brown flare skirt with flower prints from heeren..damn nice..it was v comfy and juz the way i like it..so gurl..hehe..
we wanted to thread our eyebrows but the shop was already closed by then..arrggghhh..i din touch my eyebrows for so long,saving it for that day but..:(..the process was damn funny la..the trying to get to the building and stuff but i shant elab..it'll be a secret between me and wei..and wei,u better keep quiet k?:)then rushed down to church for yf..
SUN:
had church as usual..then went home and slept for oh man..3 hours..ohh..i feel like a pig..hehe..then bathe and headed to yacht club for dinner with my family..ate so much and the lobsters were like damn fresh and damn nice la..ate this salmon pasta which totally rocks..haha.i juz love seafood..ordered so much and i felt like a pig..saw all the yachts there and i told my family that when i grow up i wana buy a nice big white yacht so that we can go out to sea when we feel like taking a break..they looked at me and told me to either go marry a rich man or go earn the big bucks first...haha..i'll choose the former..it's easier..haha..it juz looks so nice..i'll name it princess38 or purple princess...haha..
that's my weekend in short..
why muz he come back into the picture
when she has almost gotten him out of her life
almost forgotten everything they shared
he juz had to come back
the call and the msg really caught her by surprise
she wasnt expecting it and she din noe wat to do
it juz made her more confused..
she was slowly getting use to life without him and
he had to juz come back out of no where..
one part of her wishes so much that he'll juz come back to her again
but the other part juz hates him so much that she wish he'll juz disappear..
she's so confused now..juz like before..
she really wished he'll juz come back to her and love her like he did before..
but she noes it's impossible..
the princess rambled on
|Monday, September 27, 2004|
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ahhhh..i'm really bored..watch my meteor garden 2 vcd again..and yet again..steph the crybaby princess cried her eyes out again..bleah!and kor borrowed a vcd so i watched..it's called "the story of us"..quite ok la..and yet again,i cried at the part where they made up..arrgghh..i have to seriously stop crying when i watch movies man..but it's juz that it's so damn touching..i can juz really related to it..
sigh..and i cooked pasta for my family for dinner today..hehe..it was quite a success la...hope no one gets food poisoning.hehe..i'm so happy..wanted to make the chocolate cheesecake but i realize that i din haf any ingredients at home and i was so lazy to walk to holland v cold storage to buy under the blazing hot afternoon sun..hehe..see how lazy i am..haha..
really wished my phone would ring..
been staring at it for so long but no calls or msg from the one i wan..
sigh..life's an irony..
u will only treasure what u have when it's gone..
but by then it's really too late..
freaking shit!i hate it..why cant i juz treasure it then?
is this a joke?it's a real bad one..
the princess rambled on
|Monday, September 27, 2004|
