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Saturday, September 04, 2004

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sigh...something's wrong with my system man..was shaking damn badly yest and was short of breath..oh man..den i kept shitting like 4 times in 1 hour!!told my mum then she said i beta drink more water and eat more in case i shit everything including my intestines out!!oh man!yucks!!haha..she's one funny woman...

i'm starting again..i'm starting the same ting as wat i did in sec 2..i'm cutting myself again..i cant help it..thats the only i can relieve myself and sort of concentrate my pain elsewhere..i juz sorta feel beta after i did it..i hope i wun get addicted to it again...

i dun even noe why i'm saying all these here..there's seriously something wrong with me..i keep doing stuff that i cant even explain..today i walked out of the house and went to the basement carpark..then i realize what the hell was i doing??i dun even understanding my own actions??

and my bro told me that i went to his room at night,mumbled something and walked out..he tried calling me but i din respond..but i seriously cant remember..and i wasnt sleep walking..coz i wasnt even sleeping yet..oh man!!wats happening to me??i cant seem to control my own brain and body..i'm so screwed for my prelims!!!

arrggghh...i miss wei!!i use to complain abt seeing her 6 days a week in st nicks but now i dun even get to see her once a month...should never have taken her for granted..those that i cherish din cherish me and those i din cherish is the one that i should've cherish...understand?i dun really understand what i';m saying..but who cares..

i juz wish i could turn back the time and really treasure and cherish the times spent with her..sigh..but thanx wei for always being there for me..ur msgs,ur encouragements and ur calls never fail to brighten up my day..i'm serious!i love u gurl!muacks muacks..

the princess rambled on
|Saturday, September 04, 2004|

Thursday, September 02, 2004

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juz came home from my gp prelim paper..the essay was ok..not too bad..did my fave topic..education..haha..

then after the break onto my paper 2 i felt damn bad cramps..it was freaking bad..it hurt like crazy la..i really felt like giving up and going home but i told myself i musnt give up..i pressed on..haha..i guess i juz tolerated and did my paper..hope i din screw it up too badly though..

thank God swan gave me some medicine..feeling beta now..but it still hurts like crazy and i'm meeting my frenz at holland v to study..they're there ready and i'm still stuck at home in pain..wonder how am i gona walk there..hmmm...

anyway,these few days without u is terrible..my life juz feels so empty..like part of me is dead..i duno la..i guess this will tk a few days,weeks,months or maybe even years..i duno..

no energy to type..shall blog another da..tata

the princess rambled on
|Thursday, September 02, 2004|

Tuesday, August 31, 2004

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seriously i duno where to start..realize i haven been blogging for quite a long time..juz came back from tchers day celebrations..was on the way home then was tempted by daniel and benji to go to macs for lunch..had no lunch at home anyway so juz went there and got treated..haha..thanx guys for 'listening' to me thru sms k?i duno if i spoilt ur studying mood but i really thank ur for encouraging me ya?

anyway these few days has been terrible..event and event if things happen..shant elab coz those that should noe already noe and i dun want the rest to noe..i guess i shant blog much..shall devote this entry to a dedication to all my wonderful gurlies...

WEI: thanx dearie for being there for me always and i really mean it..ur really sent from heaven to be my shining angel..no matter how busy or how tired u are u never fail to listen to me and to encourage me when i need u..u juz somehow noe wats really on my mind and i can never hide from u..i really duno what will my life be without u..no amount of words can describe how important u are in my life..i guess even my family(or rather my mum)treats u like her own daughter..always asking about u..hehe..i love you!

BECKS: hey sweets..thanx for all ur encouraging msgs too k?u never fail to bring a smile to my face when i receive ur msgs..u tk good care of urself and study hard too k?remember that i'll always be here for u k?keep the BIMBO spirit alive ya?we'll meet up soon k?i love you!

CHRIS: hey dear!thanx for ur lovely smile whenever i see u in sch..ur smile brighten up my days in cj..thanx k?ur always there for me when i need someone to complain to about a certain someone..haha..u noe who i mean rite?:)u study hard and jia you k?mug hard then we can play aft As ya?love ya gurlie!

BAO: thanx for brightening up my days in cj too k?ur infectious laughter always tickles me..thanx for listening to all my troubles and complains k?u study hard and u beta get all ur As ya?love u too!

SWANNIE: hey swannie..thanx for making my life in cj so memorable and for all ur crap k?u never fail to amuse me with ur funny actions and 'tongue-in-cheek' stuff that u do..heehee..study hard as usual and get not only As but full marks k??hehe..hope i dun get pecked for this..haha..:)love u too gurlie!

ESTHER: hey gurl..thanx for all ur encouragements and for shariring with me all ur stuff too k?remember to always trust God and to listen to what He wants ya?it might seem hard but i guess God will provide the best for us k?u study hard too and keep shining for Him k?love u too!

oh man..i guess there're so many gurlies to thank in my life..i can go on forever..but i guess these are the gurlies that stood by me thru my darkest and most rough patches of my life..they literally shared my happiest times and my most painful period..i thank God everything's over now..i can totally concentrate on my studies and my gurlies and forget everything..

i guess i tk a long long time to forget u..but i'm telling myself i muz get u out of my head,out of my mind,out of my heart and out of my life..these 3 years or so has brough me wonderful and lovely memories..but the pain and hurt that i haf to go thru with it..makes it all not worth it..i'm a totally changed person from wat i was before and i guess u r too..but life still goes on and i noe u'll find someone better..forget me,forget the times spent together,forget everything..even if i haf to hate u to forget u i will..that's how much u hurt me..even if i can forget u..nothing can erase the pain u caused in my life..

the princess rambled on
|Tuesday, August 31, 2004|

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